I had the strangest dream last night....
Apparently, I got married in it! At 21 o_O It was a most peculiar marriage though, I remember it not being a ceremony nor a gathering. Maybe it was held in a small function room and there was just the ring-slipping onto my finger, that was the marriage. Some other fantasy-like things happened after that... It was most peculiar.
I remember exactly how the ring looks like and everything about it. The ring was a perfect size, and it fit onto my finger like it would never drop off. Something like, a perfect, tight, fit. And apparently in my dream world, the marriage finger is the fourth finger on the right hand. The ring was made of 925 silver - strange isn't it? But in the dream, it wasn't strange at all, we(uh, him and I) both know it would rust, but we both somehow had the same thoughts and understanding that diamond rings were for more older and mature people, and it was something *he* couldn't afford to buy just at that moment(I'm not sure if in the dream I could afford one either hahaha. But the dream explicitly pointed out that *he* couldn't juuuuuuust yet.) But I was alright with it anyways, and I truthfully am in reality when I think about this dream. I also remember what the ring looks like, and the method of putting it on so that it fits perfectly. And the last thing I remember, and its a clear sensation, was the feeling of that ring on my finger; that perfect tight fit. That "marriage finger" on my right hand still tingles hahaha. (I shall upload a picture of the ring's design soon..but for now I'm in a rush to go out!)
Strangely, this feeling of the ring on my finger seems precious to me. I'm strangely attached to this feeling lol.
Thursday, July 7, 2011
Friday, July 1, 2011
ion
walkwalkwalkwalk with pretty Doc. Chim today. she was kind enough to be my slav--*cough* to keep me company today. =D love you muchies =X MOAR BALLZ PLZ.
mom taught me some useful eyeshadow tips when we all got home XD I SHALL PUT THESE TIPS TO GOOD USE!
DAPHNE. Damn worried leh. I hope you recover well.. *cry* I cannot imagine my life without you!
mom taught me some useful eyeshadow tips when we all got home XD I SHALL PUT THESE TIPS TO GOOD USE!
DAPHNE. Damn worried leh. I hope you recover well.. *cry* I cannot imagine my life without you!
Sunday, June 19, 2011
some collection~
just a collection of my final few thoughts about every series I've watched in the holidays =X
edit: at first I wanted to just post this as it is, but now that I think about it, having pictures for viewers to look at won't hurt either ^^ so I went on a picture hunt for these shows, and I got carried away, to the point that this post is going to be chock full of pictures lol.
WARNING: LONG POST AHEAD. BEWARE OF PICTURES OF BISHOUNEN. FANGIRLING ABUNDANT.
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the pictures posted here. They belong to their respective owners. No copyright infringement intended.
all pictures linked.
shinrei tantei yakumo::
the first thing was DAISUKE ONO WHO VOICED THE MAIN MALE CHARACTER WHO'S A BISHOUNEN. <3 And the slowly-growing-but-surely-there romance between him and the girl 8D!! though at the end the romance didn't development into something SOLID (i.e. confession), it was still there 8D
sample bishounen:
and he gets the girl despite being the sarcastic type:
gundam 00: A Wakening of the Trailblazer:
okay, aside from the stupid flower at the end, the whole movie was enjoyable on so many levels. some brilliant robot fights ;OOOOO and moar pretty boys ;OOO pretty solid story~ I am SO GLAD that setsuna didn't end up with marina. I hate her :\ (movie was a continuation of the original anime series~)
sample pictar:
manabi straight:
this was the anime that made me feel SO STRONGLY about how important it is to Have Fun everyday of our lives x) I loved this anime because its inspiring on that level. there are just so many fun things you could do!
sample pictar of the importance to have FUN:
main character of FUN (she makes me want to keep doing fun things):
baccano!:
okay, this was like...first off, my final final impression after watching this TWICE in order to get the story and timeline in order is that I LOVE THIS SHOW. like SRSLY. the story-telling is DELICATE. and I fell in love with Takehito Koyasu's voice here. plus the character he gave life to - cute guy ;D its a story related to english mafia XD and I just TOTALLY LOVE some of the SRSLY CRAZY CHARACTERS HERE OMG FANGIRL HERE 8DDDD
sample pictar of series:
LUCK GANDOR, the mafia-handsome mannnn 8DD my FAVVV, and voiced by Takehito Koyasu<3 :
yeah, bloodied crazy assassin gets the girl too, he's SO CHARMING on that level 8D:
^ yeah..I love you too 8D
another lunatic who loves killing. they aren't getting married yet...but he's SO in love with her 8D he just likes how bloody red looks so pretty against WHITE. he's SUCH a romantic when he tells her "You're the last I kill before I die." AWWWW. MARRY ME. And she loves him to bits too ;D just that she can't really handle that crazy-killing-spree attitude of his:
CRAZY SCREW DRIVER GUY OMG I LOVE HIM:
uraboku:
SEIYUU BUFFET. hands down. 'nuff said. yeah, that's what it is. ALL OF MY FAVOURITE SEIYUUS IN THIS SHOW OMG I COULD DIE. (Seiyuu = voice actor). And this is also one of the rarer times when I totally like a female character in a reverse harem show. she's just so adorable XD she's a side character, but still I love her XD. BODERLINE BL MADE ME GO CRAZY. and actually, not all of my favourite seiyuus were in it. 90% of them were, but THE NUMBER ONE SEIYUU ON MY LIST WASN'T OMG NOOOOOOOOOOOO. Katsuyuki Konishi wasn't in it ):
sample pictars of series' cast:
AND, not to forget, the VERY handsome, and VERY SENSUALLY VOICED (by Takehito Koyasu), TAKESHIRO-SAMA!:
durarara:
I kept hearing alot about this show and how good it was, and coincidentally its by the same author as baccano, just that this is a more recent show compared to baccano. BUT, BACCANO IS BETTER. I deno why, but Durarara just doesn't top it. I mean I liked it, and the character interactions were SRSLY SUPERB. But the story just isn't as complete as I would've wanted it to be, probably because of how the novels are still ongoing. I'm a HUGE FANGIRL of one of the characters Shizuo Heiwajima here. HE'S VOICED BY DAISUKE ONO TOO. now I understand the hype about Shizuo 8DDDDDD
KYAAA!!! SHIZUO-SAMA!!! and IZAYA <3:
some better depictions of IZAYA <3:
level E:
HOLY SHIET THIS SHOW WAS JUST EPIC ON SO MANY LEVELS. First off, the insane comedy. I was like ROFL XDDDD And the voice acting here was BRILLIANT. by brilliant I mean how the voicing gave so much life during the comedic parts. and TAKEHITO KOYASU AGAIN. nosrsly, the first time I heard him was in LOVELESS, and that was years ago. and then suddenly this holiday break, I hear him in almost every single show that I've watched so far. THIS MUST BE FATE. 8D and I also love how the character designs isn't fan-service. its old-school style animation. no bishounen, no bishoujo, but the characters aren't ugly tho, they're just not drawn in the typical pretty-style. I still like it nonetheless. no qualms about anything regarding this show.
sample pictars of LOL scenes:
01:
02:
^captain kraft(has a grudge towards prince baka):
according to my maternal grandmother, the best way to cure amnesia is to recreate the shock that caused it. (smug face)
prince baka(with amnesia):
that's just an old wives' tale! wait, why do you look so happy about it? (01)
captain kraft:
I know, I know! I don't want to do it either! But we've no other choice!
...so prince baka got mugged ^ (02)
kuroshitsuji II:
eh, don't want to even talk about this show. its just chock full of fanservice for girls lol (not that I'm complaining 8D). some of the stuff were even borderline BL LOL (that made me go KYA!!!!! 8DDDD). but I TOTALLY DID NOT LIKE THE ORIGINAL(because the manga is still ongoing) ENDING. OMG KILL ME I REALLY DIDN'T WANT TO SEE IT. -_- No pictures, because I don't want to put them up for this series -_-
bakemonogatari:
first thing I know about this show is that it was highly anticipated in all aspects - animation, story, uniqueness blablabla. at first I liked it, but then I hated it when they went for the romance and THAT WAS IT. I DROPPED THIS SHOW. Its a DAMN HQ SHOW, but I just couldn't take the romance anymore. I hated it, hands down. :\ SOMEBODY WASH THIS BAD AFTERTASTE -_- No pictures here either, because I really disliked it THAT much.
steins-gate (still airing):
okay, I LOVE THIS SHOW. firstly because Miyano Mamoru's voice acting here is JUST BRILLIANT. ITS BRILLIANT LIKE SRSLY. I've never understood the hype about his voice acting; when he debuted he voiced Tamaki in Ouran, Light in Death Note, and Zero in Vampire Knight - shows that were good, but never topped my lists. So naturally I wouldn't notice his voice here because I wasn't going GAGA for his characters. but in Steins;Gate, this was the FIRST TIME EVER that I noticed his SUPERB voice acting. I swear HIS VOICE IS JUST SO DAMN VERSATILE. I fell in love with it instantly. and I like this whole show in general in all aspects. No pictures because this show is more of PLOT and BRILLIANT VOICE ACTING BY MIYANO MAMORU than pretty boys and girls.
star driver:
MIYANO MAMORU AGAIN. LOVE HIS VOICING HERE OMG. I absolutely LOVE how he brings SO MUCH LIFE into Takuto(main character) in this show. He makes Takuto a VERY VERY likeable character, definitely. I love Takuto ;DD And also as always, Akira Ishida's voice acting. Plus JUN FUKUYAMA YAIZ. Okay okay, aside from the voice acting, this show was CHOCK FULL OF FLAMBOYANT DISPLAYS OF LOL, in a VERY good way. Its a really good series if you look past the repetitive fight scenes ;)) The MOST flamboyant-LOL, imaginative, ambitious I've ever seen. well, that's an exaggeration, but you get what I mean.
FABULOUS boys, they're just gorgeous on so many levels. voice, personality, character design - you name it:
I LOVE her, what with that SEXY LOOK, VOICE, and PERSONALITY of hers, along with her ever-infamous GARASU-KISSU (Kissing through the glass):
red garden:
THIS WAS GOOD. despite the at-first unappealing character designs and the OVERLOAD OF DORAMA during the first few episodes, the pace of the show quickly picked up and fervently displayed the ever-developing character interactions and stories. setting aside the pretty HORRID spontaneous singing of songs throughout the episodes, the highlight of this show is, without a doubt, the character development. man I need to read more so that my vocabulary bank expands and I can express properly how I feel about this show XD
sample pictars:
eden of the east:
like bakemonogatari, this was another highly-anticipated show by the masses. I was blown away with the first few episodes, until the next few all the way till the end it just went a little downhill for me. don't get me wrong, its still a pretty good show in its own right, but I wished the story was flashed out more. 12 episodes don't do this justice, but at least they didn't rush this out. here's hoping that the two movies that I'll watch soon enough, will give this show enough closure hmm. will give my final final final impressions about this series when I get down to watching the two movies XD
I hope you enjoyed this FABULOUS post 8D
edit: at first I wanted to just post this as it is, but now that I think about it, having pictures for viewers to look at won't hurt either ^^ so I went on a picture hunt for these shows, and I got carried away, to the point that this post is going to be chock full of pictures lol.
WARNING: LONG POST AHEAD. BEWARE OF PICTURES OF BISHOUNEN. FANGIRLING ABUNDANT.
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the pictures posted here. They belong to their respective owners. No copyright infringement intended.
all pictures linked.
shinrei tantei yakumo::
the first thing was DAISUKE ONO WHO VOICED THE MAIN MALE CHARACTER WHO'S A BISHOUNEN. <3 And the slowly-growing-but-surely-there romance between him and the girl 8D!! though at the end the romance didn't development into something SOLID (i.e. confession), it was still there 8D
sample bishounen:
and he gets the girl despite being the sarcastic type:
gundam 00: A Wakening of the Trailblazer:
okay, aside from the stupid flower at the end, the whole movie was enjoyable on so many levels. some brilliant robot fights ;OOOOO and moar pretty boys ;OOO pretty solid story~ I am SO GLAD that setsuna didn't end up with marina. I hate her :\ (movie was a continuation of the original anime series~)
sample pictar:
manabi straight:
this was the anime that made me feel SO STRONGLY about how important it is to Have Fun everyday of our lives x) I loved this anime because its inspiring on that level. there are just so many fun things you could do!
sample pictar of the importance to have FUN:
main character of FUN (she makes me want to keep doing fun things):
baccano!:
okay, this was like...first off, my final final impression after watching this TWICE in order to get the story and timeline in order is that I LOVE THIS SHOW. like SRSLY. the story-telling is DELICATE. and I fell in love with Takehito Koyasu's voice here. plus the character he gave life to - cute guy ;D its a story related to english mafia XD and I just TOTALLY LOVE some of the SRSLY CRAZY CHARACTERS HERE OMG FANGIRL HERE 8DDDD
sample pictar of series:
LUCK GANDOR, the mafia-handsome mannnn 8DD my FAVVV, and voiced by Takehito Koyasu<3 :
yeah, bloodied crazy assassin gets the girl too, he's SO CHARMING on that level 8D:
^ yeah..I love you too 8D
another lunatic who loves killing. they aren't getting married yet...but he's SO in love with her 8D he just likes how bloody red looks so pretty against WHITE. he's SUCH a romantic when he tells her "You're the last I kill before I die." AWWWW. MARRY ME. And she loves him to bits too ;D just that she can't really handle that crazy-killing-spree attitude of his:
CRAZY SCREW DRIVER GUY OMG I LOVE HIM:
uraboku:
SEIYUU BUFFET. hands down. 'nuff said. yeah, that's what it is. ALL OF MY FAVOURITE SEIYUUS IN THIS SHOW OMG I COULD DIE. (Seiyuu = voice actor). And this is also one of the rarer times when I totally like a female character in a reverse harem show. she's just so adorable XD she's a side character, but still I love her XD. BODERLINE BL MADE ME GO CRAZY. and actually, not all of my favourite seiyuus were in it. 90% of them were, but THE NUMBER ONE SEIYUU ON MY LIST WASN'T OMG NOOOOOOOOOOOO. Katsuyuki Konishi wasn't in it ):
sample pictars of series' cast:
AND, not to forget, the VERY handsome, and VERY SENSUALLY VOICED (by Takehito Koyasu), TAKESHIRO-SAMA!:
durarara:
I kept hearing alot about this show and how good it was, and coincidentally its by the same author as baccano, just that this is a more recent show compared to baccano. BUT, BACCANO IS BETTER. I deno why, but Durarara just doesn't top it. I mean I liked it, and the character interactions were SRSLY SUPERB. But the story just isn't as complete as I would've wanted it to be, probably because of how the novels are still ongoing. I'm a HUGE FANGIRL of one of the characters Shizuo Heiwajima here. HE'S VOICED BY DAISUKE ONO TOO. now I understand the hype about Shizuo 8DDDDDD
KYAAA!!! SHIZUO-SAMA!!! and IZAYA <3:
some better depictions of IZAYA <3:
level E:
HOLY SHIET THIS SHOW WAS JUST EPIC ON SO MANY LEVELS. First off, the insane comedy. I was like ROFL XDDDD And the voice acting here was BRILLIANT. by brilliant I mean how the voicing gave so much life during the comedic parts. and TAKEHITO KOYASU AGAIN. nosrsly, the first time I heard him was in LOVELESS, and that was years ago. and then suddenly this holiday break, I hear him in almost every single show that I've watched so far. THIS MUST BE FATE. 8D and I also love how the character designs isn't fan-service. its old-school style animation. no bishounen, no bishoujo, but the characters aren't ugly tho, they're just not drawn in the typical pretty-style. I still like it nonetheless. no qualms about anything regarding this show.
sample pictars of LOL scenes:
01:
02:
^captain kraft(has a grudge towards prince baka):
according to my maternal grandmother, the best way to cure amnesia is to recreate the shock that caused it. (smug face)
prince baka(with amnesia):
that's just an old wives' tale! wait, why do you look so happy about it? (01)
captain kraft:
I know, I know! I don't want to do it either! But we've no other choice!
...so prince baka got mugged ^ (02)
kuroshitsuji II:
eh, don't want to even talk about this show. its just chock full of fanservice for girls lol (not that I'm complaining 8D). some of the stuff were even borderline BL LOL (that made me go KYA!!!!! 8DDDD). but I TOTALLY DID NOT LIKE THE ORIGINAL(because the manga is still ongoing) ENDING. OMG KILL ME I REALLY DIDN'T WANT TO SEE IT. -_- No pictures, because I don't want to put them up for this series -_-
bakemonogatari:
first thing I know about this show is that it was highly anticipated in all aspects - animation, story, uniqueness blablabla. at first I liked it, but then I hated it when they went for the romance and THAT WAS IT. I DROPPED THIS SHOW. Its a DAMN HQ SHOW, but I just couldn't take the romance anymore. I hated it, hands down. :\ SOMEBODY WASH THIS BAD AFTERTASTE -_- No pictures here either, because I really disliked it THAT much.
steins-gate (still airing):
okay, I LOVE THIS SHOW. firstly because Miyano Mamoru's voice acting here is JUST BRILLIANT. ITS BRILLIANT LIKE SRSLY. I've never understood the hype about his voice acting; when he debuted he voiced Tamaki in Ouran, Light in Death Note, and Zero in Vampire Knight - shows that were good, but never topped my lists. So naturally I wouldn't notice his voice here because I wasn't going GAGA for his characters. but in Steins;Gate, this was the FIRST TIME EVER that I noticed his SUPERB voice acting. I swear HIS VOICE IS JUST SO DAMN VERSATILE. I fell in love with it instantly. and I like this whole show in general in all aspects. No pictures because this show is more of PLOT and BRILLIANT VOICE ACTING BY MIYANO MAMORU than pretty boys and girls.
star driver:
MIYANO MAMORU AGAIN. LOVE HIS VOICING HERE OMG. I absolutely LOVE how he brings SO MUCH LIFE into Takuto(main character) in this show. He makes Takuto a VERY VERY likeable character, definitely. I love Takuto ;DD And also as always, Akira Ishida's voice acting. Plus JUN FUKUYAMA YAIZ. Okay okay, aside from the voice acting, this show was CHOCK FULL OF FLAMBOYANT DISPLAYS OF LOL, in a VERY good way. Its a really good series if you look past the repetitive fight scenes ;)) The MOST flamboyant-LOL, imaginative, ambitious I've ever seen. well, that's an exaggeration, but you get what I mean.
FABULOUS boys, they're just gorgeous on so many levels. voice, personality, character design - you name it:
I LOVE her, what with that SEXY LOOK, VOICE, and PERSONALITY of hers, along with her ever-infamous GARASU-KISSU (Kissing through the glass):
red garden:
THIS WAS GOOD. despite the at-first unappealing character designs and the OVERLOAD OF DORAMA during the first few episodes, the pace of the show quickly picked up and fervently displayed the ever-developing character interactions and stories. setting aside the pretty HORRID spontaneous singing of songs throughout the episodes, the highlight of this show is, without a doubt, the character development. man I need to read more so that my vocabulary bank expands and I can express properly how I feel about this show XD
sample pictars:
eden of the east:
like bakemonogatari, this was another highly-anticipated show by the masses. I was blown away with the first few episodes, until the next few all the way till the end it just went a little downhill for me. don't get me wrong, its still a pretty good show in its own right, but I wished the story was flashed out more. 12 episodes don't do this justice, but at least they didn't rush this out. here's hoping that the two movies that I'll watch soon enough, will give this show enough closure hmm. will give my final final final impressions about this series when I get down to watching the two movies XD
I hope you enjoyed this FABULOUS post 8D
from Y to Y
「I knew I would be right about everything..」
「涙落ちる前に行かなきゃ。」
「私。。きっと大丈夫だよね。」
「如何したらいいのかワカンナイ」
「I don't really feel like sleeping for fear of thinking about things I don't want to.」
「涙落ちる前に行かなきゃ。」
「私。。きっと大丈夫だよね。」
「如何したらいいのかワカンナイ」
「I don't really feel like sleeping for fear of thinking about things I don't want to.」
Sunday, June 12, 2011
list
just a list of the anime series I've covered during so far during the holidays xD so I can keep track =X
completed:
shinrei tantei yakumo
gundam 00: A Wakening of the Trailblazer
manabi straight
baccano!
uraboku
durarara
level E
kuroshitsuji II
bakemonogatari
steins-gate (still airing)
a-channel
red garden
eden of the east
star driver
house of five leaves
dragon crisis
natsume yuujin-cho
fractale
true tears
eden of the east movies I and II
kara no kyoukai
Le Chevalier d'Eon
Evangelion: 2.0 You Can (Not) Advance
zoku natsume yuujin-cho
nabari no ou
priority to finish:
cowboy bebop
completed:
shinrei tantei yakumo
gundam 00: A Wakening of the Trailblazer
manabi straight
baccano!
uraboku
durarara
level E
kuroshitsuji II
bakemonogatari
steins-gate (still airing)
a-channel
red garden
eden of the east
star driver
house of five leaves
dragon crisis
natsume yuujin-cho
fractale
true tears
eden of the east movies I and II
kara no kyoukai
Le Chevalier d'Eon
Evangelion: 2.0 You Can (Not) Advance
zoku natsume yuujin-cho
nabari no ou
priority to finish:
cowboy bebop
Monday, May 30, 2011
long post shall be long...?
yes, I'm finally getting around to posting since I'm feeling emo enough lol
(it just so happens that doctor chim already posted one oO)
so what's been up?
my exams have ended; they were a total hell. I was close to breaking down after the second paper, so yes it was that bad. I remember vividly about how depressed I was feeling; it was as if everything was going to be hopeless. my grades this semester are going to be bad as I know it, and the following consequence to that is an overall GPA that shall prevent me from getting my desired second-upper. I'm only left with two years, and I fully know that there's no way in hell I'm going to make it. so I'm probably going to face a rough start in the working society. I'm going to be disappointed when I get my degree, and my family too - which inwardly adds on to my stress.
so now its the holidays
and I've been out almost everyday since it started~ the beach with my uni gals - oh gosh it was SO SO fun! I remember going crazy over seeing and just walking on the white sand with my bare feet at siloso beach. gosh I felt soooo free! I really want to go back there again and experience that sense of freedom once more.
next up was a friend's 21st birthday party. though I've only known her since the start of this semester, the project group we were in - I guess you could say it was a blessing all of us turned out to be good friends X33 I don't regret these days.. I loved the group I was in x)
then...oh right, mom's day belated celebration with crabs. oh that was a good lunch I had with my family, it was full of cranky, stupid jokes and loads of laughter. I love my family xD we're such joke-sters lol ;))
next day was a full day with Daphne. badminton, spontaneous Gantz movie. oh it was just great. I've never spent a whole day with her like this before, gosh it was so eventful on so many levels. apparently we found out that GV's become really strict on age-checking. you -must- have your IC with you. I didn't, but they let it go for once after they saw my uni matric card.
YEAH. GANTZ WAS JUST FUCKING GOOD. HOLY SHIT I WAS BLOWN AWAY. SO MUCH CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT. and obviously the plot is slow-moving, but the second you feel that the events in the movie are repetitive, the next it just sweeps you off your feet because it really isn't all that repetitive. personally, I give it 6 out of 5 stars. CAN'T WAIT FOR THE NEXT ONE TO BE RELEASED LOCALLY. TOTALLY -WILL- BE BUYING THE HD RELEASE OF THE COMBINED TWO MOVIES ;))!
and then was HY's bday celebration, and FINALLY my hair trim. I think you all know about how torn I was between sticking to the hair stylist who gave me the short hair, or going for a cheaper cut. but ever since a friend of mine said "make self happy", I firmly decided on sticking to Jaymz. Yeah..it was expensive, but it was also a really relaxing and ultimately enjoyable visit at his new salon. I'm not sure if I'll go back to him for the next trim - I think that depends on if I can afford it~
then there was my church's bazaar. yeah, I know none of you turned up lol. the only one who did was one of my guy friends. but really, I wasn't expecting anyone of you to visit either >_>'' the few memorable things about this carnival was how the customers at our booth always smiled back at me when I greeted them fervently. it was really heartwarming, and probably one of the few driving forces that made me stand throughout the hours I was there. gosh waking up at 8am and helping out till 4pm isn't a joke.. I didn't walk around the carnival because I really couldn't bear to leave our booth to my parents only. I don't really know, but I guess you say I was quite emotionally attached to the stall. I just can't bear to leave the stall without knowing it would be in good hands -_- that's not to say my parents are bad at it - they're really good at it. but I think they seriously might've been overwhelmed. and my sis - she was just dead log. zzz. she's good at thinking but not good with customers. she's bad at it, period. not her thing. -_-' I was hoping when she arrived she could take over me, but nooooo, she went around the stalls and had her share of fun ._. ah well.
and I've also been catching up on anime~!
like, FINALLY. so I covered the rest of my halted Kuroshitsuji II whose anime-original ending totally made me go RAAAAAAAAAAAGE!!!!!!!!!!!! so I had to go pick up from where I halted the original (still ongoing) manga to wipe off the HORRID aftertaste of the anime who's storyline is completely different from the original manga. I watched the second anime season purely out of interest lol, and because kuroshitsuji is kewl. and I totally love the manga~~~ I still have Faster Than A Kiss that I have yet to resume since the exams started -_- arghhh, must always have good determined mood to do these things =X
other animes I've covered include Steins;Gate, Shinrei Tantei Yakumo, Level E (totally loved that one). man only three series...it seemed more than that but I guess its because they're so many episodes each xD I STILL HAVE SO MUCH MORE TO WATCH!!! CAN'T WAIT. xD
onto something else entirely..
Ben has been MIA-ing. I have no idea if its on purpose, but I can gather that this is the limit of the friendship we hav...had. I need to vent this out lol. because seriously, we all know, it takes two hands to clap. if I'm the only one making an effort to catch up, then this speaks volumes about how "important" I am to him. as someone who tried her best keeping him sane and a bit more cheerful, he considered me as someone precious in that friendly sense. but now that we've moved on with our lives, we're getting busier with our studies and friends - but there was nothing stopping me from talking to him time to time. but he hasn't been doing that in the past few months. this situation feels like a parallel to what I experienced with Joel, only that Ben and I were close in that emotional sense and Joel wasn't really. I keep wondering if Ben is MIA-ing on me purposefully because (like Joel) he's actually really not all that interested in maintaining a friendship with me, or he's honestly "just. too. busy.". I don't know what to think, its bugging me a little, but not as much as other things. it doesn't mean we were emotionally "close" makes it assume-able that I understand how important he views me as. no, it doesn't work that way - there is *effort* required, and if he's not putting it in, I don't want to waste my time.
c'mon, even James is putting aside time to chat with me once in a while. this just speaks volumes..
and about Justin,
sigh I guess I still like him. I can easily relate to any story or situation if it deals with a girl fervently trying to catch the attention of a quiet guy. and I get sad because the girl eventually gets him, but I didn't. then I just started to realize that this saddness I feel is almost identical to when I still had feelings for Ben. sigh, this is the second time I'm feeling like this. just heartbreaking, really. the second guy to break my heart, in a way.
(it just so happens that doctor chim already posted one oO)
so what's been up?
my exams have ended; they were a total hell. I was close to breaking down after the second paper, so yes it was that bad. I remember vividly about how depressed I was feeling; it was as if everything was going to be hopeless. my grades this semester are going to be bad as I know it, and the following consequence to that is an overall GPA that shall prevent me from getting my desired second-upper. I'm only left with two years, and I fully know that there's no way in hell I'm going to make it. so I'm probably going to face a rough start in the working society. I'm going to be disappointed when I get my degree, and my family too - which inwardly adds on to my stress.
so now its the holidays
and I've been out almost everyday since it started~ the beach with my uni gals - oh gosh it was SO SO fun! I remember going crazy over seeing and just walking on the white sand with my bare feet at siloso beach. gosh I felt soooo free! I really want to go back there again and experience that sense of freedom once more.
next up was a friend's 21st birthday party. though I've only known her since the start of this semester, the project group we were in - I guess you could say it was a blessing all of us turned out to be good friends X33 I don't regret these days.. I loved the group I was in x)
then...oh right, mom's day belated celebration with crabs. oh that was a good lunch I had with my family, it was full of cranky, stupid jokes and loads of laughter. I love my family xD we're such joke-sters lol ;))
next day was a full day with Daphne. badminton, spontaneous Gantz movie. oh it was just great. I've never spent a whole day with her like this before, gosh it was so eventful on so many levels. apparently we found out that GV's become really strict on age-checking. you -must- have your IC with you. I didn't, but they let it go for once after they saw my uni matric card.
YEAH. GANTZ WAS JUST FUCKING GOOD. HOLY SHIT I WAS BLOWN AWAY. SO MUCH CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT. and obviously the plot is slow-moving, but the second you feel that the events in the movie are repetitive, the next it just sweeps you off your feet because it really isn't all that repetitive. personally, I give it 6 out of 5 stars. CAN'T WAIT FOR THE NEXT ONE TO BE RELEASED LOCALLY. TOTALLY -WILL- BE BUYING THE HD RELEASE OF THE COMBINED TWO MOVIES ;))!
and then was HY's bday celebration, and FINALLY my hair trim. I think you all know about how torn I was between sticking to the hair stylist who gave me the short hair, or going for a cheaper cut. but ever since a friend of mine said "make self happy", I firmly decided on sticking to Jaymz. Yeah..it was expensive, but it was also a really relaxing and ultimately enjoyable visit at his new salon. I'm not sure if I'll go back to him for the next trim - I think that depends on if I can afford it~
then there was my church's bazaar. yeah, I know none of you turned up lol. the only one who did was one of my guy friends. but really, I wasn't expecting anyone of you to visit either >_>'' the few memorable things about this carnival was how the customers at our booth always smiled back at me when I greeted them fervently. it was really heartwarming, and probably one of the few driving forces that made me stand throughout the hours I was there. gosh waking up at 8am and helping out till 4pm isn't a joke.. I didn't walk around the carnival because I really couldn't bear to leave our booth to my parents only. I don't really know, but I guess you say I was quite emotionally attached to the stall. I just can't bear to leave the stall without knowing it would be in good hands -_- that's not to say my parents are bad at it - they're really good at it. but I think they seriously might've been overwhelmed. and my sis - she was just dead log. zzz. she's good at thinking but not good with customers. she's bad at it, period. not her thing. -_-' I was hoping when she arrived she could take over me, but nooooo, she went around the stalls and had her share of fun ._. ah well.
and I've also been catching up on anime~!
like, FINALLY. so I covered the rest of my halted Kuroshitsuji II whose anime-original ending totally made me go RAAAAAAAAAAAGE!!!!!!!!!!!! so I had to go pick up from where I halted the original (still ongoing) manga to wipe off the HORRID aftertaste of the anime who's storyline is completely different from the original manga. I watched the second anime season purely out of interest lol, and because kuroshitsuji is kewl. and I totally love the manga~~~ I still have Faster Than A Kiss that I have yet to resume since the exams started -_- arghhh, must always have good determined mood to do these things =X
other animes I've covered include Steins;Gate, Shinrei Tantei Yakumo, Level E (totally loved that one). man only three series...it seemed more than that but I guess its because they're so many episodes each xD I STILL HAVE SO MUCH MORE TO WATCH!!! CAN'T WAIT. xD
onto something else entirely..
Ben has been MIA-ing. I have no idea if its on purpose, but I can gather that this is the limit of the friendship we hav...had. I need to vent this out lol. because seriously, we all know, it takes two hands to clap. if I'm the only one making an effort to catch up, then this speaks volumes about how "important" I am to him. as someone who tried her best keeping him sane and a bit more cheerful, he considered me as someone precious in that friendly sense. but now that we've moved on with our lives, we're getting busier with our studies and friends - but there was nothing stopping me from talking to him time to time. but he hasn't been doing that in the past few months. this situation feels like a parallel to what I experienced with Joel, only that Ben and I were close in that emotional sense and Joel wasn't really. I keep wondering if Ben is MIA-ing on me purposefully because (like Joel) he's actually really not all that interested in maintaining a friendship with me, or he's honestly "just. too. busy.". I don't know what to think, its bugging me a little, but not as much as other things. it doesn't mean we were emotionally "close" makes it assume-able that I understand how important he views me as. no, it doesn't work that way - there is *effort* required, and if he's not putting it in, I don't want to waste my time.
c'mon, even James is putting aside time to chat with me once in a while. this just speaks volumes..
and about Justin,
sigh I guess I still like him. I can easily relate to any story or situation if it deals with a girl fervently trying to catch the attention of a quiet guy. and I get sad because the girl eventually gets him, but I didn't. then I just started to realize that this saddness I feel is almost identical to when I still had feelings for Ben. sigh, this is the second time I'm feeling like this. just heartbreaking, really. the second guy to break my heart, in a way.
Friday, May 6, 2011
もし
in the next 2-3 years, if I still haven't met anyone else better...I'll settle for you.
but if during that time you've found someone else - I'll let it go.
but if during that time you've found someone else - I'll let it go.
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