やっぱり胸が痛い。。/ my chest really does feel tight..

I'm hopelessly crushing on Justin. At first I got a little bit angry, and tried to just forget about him entirely from my own and my friends' encouragement.. But every single time, I find myself thinking about him again and again. Then I realized that I just.. really like this person.

At first it was hard to control my feelings and I had my hopes up frequently.. But after a while, I just let things slide and decided to just look at him from afar. It made me really happy to just be able to look at him from far away. And this was last semester..

This time round.. I started the semester in January with the same thinking: Just looking from afar and not talking to him - like I'm just some sort of stranger to him. But the more I saw him the more I wanted to talk to this person.. To get a little bit closer to him. I learned from my past experiences with this person that its hard to get him to talk.

Last semester for the lab module I always felt happy just being able to spot him from afar, but at the same time I kind of.. "hated" on him. Because to me, he was always a difficult person to talk to.. But I was still happy. And my lab partner could tell how happy I was.

Then for this semester I checked the photo gallery for the lab module and found out that he's in the same slot and day again. This time round it was going to be organic laboratory so he would be at the same fumehood all the time instead of last semester when it was physical laboratory where the location of each experiment was different.. So obviously this time I checked which fumehood he would be assigned to, whilst also finding out that another good friend of mine would be in the same lab as he. They'd be in lab 1 while I'd be in lab 2, and even better was that my friend would be doing the same experiments as I would be every week. This gave me a good excuse to visit lab 1 while waiting for my reactions to complete.. Which I always did, every single week. Except for my birthday (yes it fell on a lab day), because that experiment was demanding and I was too nervous to visit Justin's fumehood on my birthday aka valentines.. Whenever I visited lab 2, I told myself that I could use the excuse that my friend was doing the same experiment schedule as I was, to visit his lab where Justin was as well.. Every time I visited I would stop by my friend's before trying to spot where Justin was. The first visit I noticed that his fumehood was at the same row as my friend's - I guess you can say I was pretty happy about it, because it would be easy and convenient to drop by at Justin's. Before I plucked up the courage to talk to Justin, whenever I passed by him at his fumehood, I would tug at his lab sleeve as a form of greeting of sorts.. I wasn't yet prepared to say hi to him in a friendly way yet so I just tugged.. I was happy enough. Some time later I plucked up the courage to "talk" to him - just mindless statements about the lab - like which experiment he was doing, how was it and all. He was unexpectedly more cheerful and happy compared to the previous few semesters - and it made me wonder what had changed for him to become like that, even in the faculty. He was known to be a cold unfriendly person to others at the faculty, and didn't have much of a presence since he always left immediately after lectures ended.. Regardless I was happy and whenever I returned to my own fumehood in the other lab I would be satisfied and happy and would blurt out whatever happened to Vicky who happens to always be beside me during every lab. What I loved the most during these visits was how more friendly he'd become, his voice, his smile (though I never dared to look at him in the face for long - it'd be too much for me to take) - and most of all just standing beside him.. I can never forget how it feels like to stand right beside him. That tall built figure standing right beside someone as petite as I am.. I could always feel myself shaking because of that feeling.

And not only was he in the same day for lab, he was also taking two other modules that I had undertaken too. It made me even happier (heheh), and I managed to give him valentine's chocolates for once. I wonder if he ate them (lol) or.. disposed it, because when I saw him leaving the building a while later he wasn't holding it anymore. One of the modules I always made a point to sit beside him; it was hard to keep myself sane from the accelerated heartbeats and my mind going crazy about how close I was to him again in a while. Though we didn't talk at all, he did cheerfully greet me hello and goodbye before I did - and I returned the greetings as cheerfully and happy as I could - afterall, I really WAS happy about how he said it first before I did.

And now that semester is over.. I guess I will never have the chance to talk to him, nor see him ever again. From what I know, he's going to be doing the industrial attachment in the upcoming semester - and I'll be in school. And the exact opposite when I'm on my own attachment the next next semester. I really wanted to take a photo with him at least for memory's sake but I guess maybe it wasn't meant to be then eh? My friend suggested I could do it during convocation but I told her Justin didn't seem like the sort to attend it.. But if he does, I would really want to snap a shot with him. I don't think I'll be confessing though.

The last time anyone made me feel this way was Ben. I haven't crushed on someone this hopelessly since Ben. But I already know its one-sided, just like it was with Ben. I'm keeping my distance properly and making sure I don't make him feel stalked by a small girl (hahaha) while constantly feeling a heartache whenever I think about this person. I don't think about him every second of every day, but once in a while. Its just really hidden, in a sense - although a few of my friends know how hopeless my case is (heheheh). I can't control my feelings - and they're serious feelings, not some half-assed thing.

All this might sound like some kind of puppy crush and if it really is I won't deny it.. Afterall, I barely know this person and how he's really like. But I'm already hopelessly falling. I like him, a whole lot. To the point that I could cry just by having had a dream in which we were talking like real good friends. I don't desire for anything else right now other than to be able to be better friends with this person.. But its not going to happen any time soon, nor ever.

I hope I can meet someone in the future for whom I can feel the same way and he'd feel the same for me.

heh

I've decided not to pursue anything with Joseph, and also to cut off all ties with said person.

For the past 7 years, we were always on and off contact - all I can remember of our conversations is how they always ended up in the same argument about how he wants to try me. I could never accept it and always ended up blocking him. Its been going on like this for the past few years, and this time round I've decided to put a stop to it after a friend made me truly realize what was happening, and how I was really being treated.

I've been manipulated emotionally and morally to go against my beliefs about how a relationship should be. I will not go into details.. There's too much to say and since I've decided that I do not want this person to resurface in my life again, there's no point in me going on about the reasons to my decision. I've decided, and that's that. Nothing more, and nothing less.

I should have stuck with my beliefs all these years, and now I need to re-affirm in these beliefs.. I need a moral compass for this.. I find it difficult to do this all over again.. I just pray that someone will come by in the future - someone who truly treasures me. Because if he does, then naturally he would respect me, he would make sure *I* was ready as well, basically, he would NEVER pressure me into doing things that go against my beliefs.

I feel so morally gray.. I've been feeling so gray these years. There's not much black and white opinions I have about morality/ethical issues these days.. I feel so.. Just what have I become?

Being a girl is difficult sometimes - especially if you're someone like me. Girls sometimes depend on others' kindness for strength to pick themselves up from where they've fallen. This time round.. Instead of relying on friends' kindness and concern, I want to stand back up on my two feet with my own strength. I want to recover back my beliefs. I don't want to rely on other people's encouragement.. I want to rely on my own strength. I wonder if I will be able to do it. I want to be emotionally independent about this.

"Just wot the fuck you want??"

I asked Joseph that question the other day, and also requested for him to be honest about it. So he said "I want...company."

..Company?? Okay, I'm not sure how many of you get into relationships with motives that are vastly different from your partner, but the general reason for getting into one is because you're interested in the person, right? Like, you LIKE him/her. And also the other party feels the same - hopefully. Even if its not that way, I still find that the way Joseph is approaching all these is just... as if he has no real feelings? I don't like it. Okay well, everything's just barely started because our exams JUST ended a week ago. But nevermind that - this is a journal entry, a place to voice out my real thoughts.

Fuck, I'm not someone whom you can just ..omg, I don't even know how to put all these feelings and thoughts into proper words. Please don't treat me like I'm some person you can ask out and not show any real interest in R.E.A.L.L.Y. wanting to see me? F, I'm not going to say all these things to him, it'll defeat the whole purpose! See if you really like someone, you'd EXPRESS your interest in wanting to meet him/her, right? It doesn't feel that way with Joseph!!! Omg man.

Okay, well, we're just trying. things. out. And here's where my HUGE confusion starts. What does "trying it out" pertain anyway? Does it mean that its just a "okay u free i free, i see first if i want to meet u." wot the fuck?? How are things going to work out that way??? Just ...wot the f man. I don't even know what's going on. I don't want to show that I *want* to see this person when he doesn't show it!!! F THIS MAN!!!

Seriously, if he was really interested in me, and not in this for "company", he'd put his back into asking me out. F, I feel WEIRD saying things like "we" "together" "us", because omg, this is just a try out!!!

What do I feel about all this? What do I really want to do? I want to go out with this person to walk around/watch movies/whatever with the more-than-friends motive. Not the "okay u free i free" thing only. This is the way *I* would do things. I suppose I will need to control my feelings - like, don't start feeling about all this too early or too much - afterall, its just a try out. But when HE does this don't-start-feeling-yet thing on me - in all honesty, it kinda hurts. Like he ALSO doesn't care. Fuck, HE WAS THE ONE WHO SUGGESTED THE TRY OUT. WHY ISN'T HE DOING ANYTHING ABOUT IT??? Like, asking me out, talking to me etc.

On the topic of talking, okay well, not everyday obviously. But seriously, I don't have any interesting conversations with this person!!! Heck, even from before trying it out it was like this already!! Him and I have nothing in common!! He doesn't make the effort to talk about anything else other than 'hi' 'how was your day' etc.. But I shall *appreciate* it that he at least MAKES the effort to suddenly ask me these things out of the blue.

F THIS WHOLE THING!!!!!! But I guess I shouldn't say things like "I want out" when nothing's really started yet. But if by the end of this summer break there's no improvement then THAT'S IT. I think. I'm going to need to find the courage within me to put an end to this once and for all. The only reason we're back in contact is because of this try out thing. We've had a long history going back to our primary school days and so we have something like a "soft" spot for each other. We've never dated each other before so we decided to try it out - not JUST because we've been friends long and never dated each other before.

Another thing that I *CANNOT* accept is his desire for intimacy. Seriously, INTIMACY IN THE TRY OUT STAGE? DON'T F WITH ME. F NO OKAY. And he CANNOT get this into his F-ING. THICK. SKULL. And that's the reason why I'm always off and on contact with this person - he pisses me off with how lightly he takes this intimacy issue. You want the extra deal of intimacy in this try out stage? SORRY, NO CAN DO. I don't even have the slightest how this try out stage with him is going to work out without intimacy because he's really quite the insistent type. I need to come up with ALOT of countermeasures. But there's a limit to how many encounters I escape.

I don't mind intimacy if we're going SERIOUS, because that's when we have feelings for the other person. But now? NO OKAY. NO CAN DO. NO GO. RED LIGHT.

That's all. I can't think of anymore I wanted to say. Brain bock. Ugh.

BUST THOSE ZITS

ya that's right. but don't do that physically!

adapted from: Lifestyle, April 2012, pg 100

MYTHS OF ACNE PREVENTION

1. CHOCOLATE GREASY FOOD AND CAFFEINE CAUSES ACNE BREAKOUTS

- That's a lie. In fact, research has shown that these food items (potato chips, chocolate, french fries etc) rarely causes acne!!! However, if your face DOES break out the next day after eating these things - it is best to find out WHICH FOOD ITEM caused the break out!

2. DRINK MORE WATER TO FLUSH OUT ACNE

- ******* lie. There's NO PROOF that water has that ability. That said, DO DRINK WATER in healthy amounts. i.e. THIRST DRIVEN DRINKING! Its your BODY that needs water (:

3. SUGAR CAUSES ACNE

- False. Like chocolate and greasy food. BUT IT DOESN'T MEAN WE CAN EAT SWEETS LIKE THE WORLD'S GONNA END TOMORROW OKAY!!!

4. ACNE IS CAUSED BY OILY SKIN

- Okay, truth be told, I thought the oil skin and dirt clogged up my pores on the sides of my faces that gave me pimples there. But apparently not eh? Pores will be clogged whether or not you have dry or oily skin.

So that's about it. Ciao.

お願いジュンブライト

okay the title has nothing to do with this post. I initially just wanted to make some Notes on facebook, but couldn't find the tab so I assumed it became extinct with the new facebook look. So here I am blogging instead.

I was reading this month's lifestyle magazine over lunch and I just wanna share some of the pages in it that might help peeps out there.

The most important nutrients/vitamins/minerals for one's skin - whether you're male or female.

Reading about it makes me want to invest in these things LOL Either by eating better or taking better care of myself, etc.

Adapted from: Lifestyle, April 2012, pg 94-95. So first, EVENING PRIMEROSE OIL. Obviously extracted from the plant lol. Helps in skin conditions like acne, eczema, pre-menstrual syndrome and psoriasis. Generally well-tolerated by most people, but some may get headaches, nausea and stomach aches. Okay, the main reason why I'd want to take this, IS BECAUSE MY MOM IS ALSO TAKING IT LOLOLOL. And she's been taking it since forever. So I was thinking, maybe I can too - when I'm older (:

Second, ANTIOXIDANTS. Now, in my opinion, THESE ARE VERY IMPORTANT. I have no idea why, but its probably because I'm just biased for berries LOL They help to hinder radical production in our skin that's caused by excessive exposure to sun, stress, pollution, alcohol and stress. These free radicals weaken our skin and accelerate aging!!!

ANTIOXIDANTS INCLUDE VITAMIN A, C, AND SELENIUM. Short for vital amines, if you didn't know. But what we all DO know is that vitamins are important no matter what. And these are essential for healthy and supple skin. So take as much foods that contain these lovelies as you can, in healthy amounts (:

VITAMIN A is awesome for good vision, a healthy immune system, and cell growth. Long history of use in treating acne - by encouraging collagen production in the skin.

VITAMIN C. Yeah, I think we all know pretty well what this does. Aside from improving the immune system like we all know already, it also helps in IRON ABSORPTION. So girls, we need this vitamin (;

VITAMIN E. Yeah, The Body Shop has commercialized/made famous Vitamin E with their related products LOL. It is actually the most important vitamin that prevents damage to cell membrane enzymes by inactivating free radicals. It has been noted to reduce UV/photo damage, wrinkles, and improve skin texture - though if taken in large concentrations may cause bleeding. So when taking this vitamin, くれぐれもお気おつけて下さいね - which translates to be careful (:

SELENIUM - preserve tissue elasticity and thus slows down aging!

So, what's the last thing on the list? LIFESTYLE CHANGES, that's what. I think we all know - stress management, sunscreen, healthy diets and water, and HEALTHY SLEEP!!!

By the way, never use supplements as a form of　換わり。 i.e. do not use supplements as REPLACEMENTS for real food!!!

christmas days

so before I start off the bulk of this post, let me just get a few things off my chest first! XD

one, DAMN MY SEC 3 TUITION KID IS CUTE! Like, the boyish cute. Seriously, he might be ALOT younger than me, and according to him, "the shortest one in class, the smallest one, too light for a guy, too skinny for a guy", I'm like "Dude, if I were younger than you, I wouldn't mind you lol." Plus he seems to have an awesome character. I really pray that girls won't mind his height so much lol. At least, for me, I'll always be shorter than general guys, so I have no problem finding taller guys lol. When I tried comparing our heights, he was like "I AM TALLER THAN YOU LA" to which I replied "I THOUGHT WE WERE AT SIMILAR HEIGHTS OMG" Ah well. He's really cute :p but no worries, not going to step over boundaries here. BUT DAMN AM I LUCKY LOL. He has an awesome character, and damn "When I talk to you, I feel like I'm talking to a friend than a teacher." I SHALL TAKE THAT AS A COMPLIMENT :D!! TO ALL THE YOUNG GIRLS OUT THERE, THIS IS A GUY YOU SHOULD BE FRIENDS WITH LOLOLOL.

next, DAMN MY STYLIST LEFT A BIG IMPRESSION ON ME. BECAUSE EVEN THOUGH I ONLY SEE HIM ONCE EVERY TWO TO THREE MONTHS, I THINK OF HIM SOOOO FONDLY AND QUITE OFTEN BECAUSE HE'S SUCH A NICE, NORMAL GUY. DAMN LOL. He's always asking me, in chinese, "Going pak tor today ah?" to which I always reply no (honest), he says "Aiyooo, why never??" LOL AND THE WHOLE CONVERSATION IS ABOUT OUR CURRENT LIVES (in general terms). I'm really fond of him in that friendly way XD

ON TO THE BULK OF THE POST.

I WENT TO USS TODAYYYYYYYYY YAIZZZZZZ With my mom and sis~~ I had everything for free since they paid for everything >< I feel really bad sia, gotta make sure I pay them back or return the favors when I start working lol seriously.

So we headed to USS in the morn at about.. 11am? And spent the whole day there lol. We rode almost every single ride out there, like, at least one for each of the different attractions (Sci-fi, Egyptian, New York, Far Far Away, Madagascar etc) BUT THE FIRST WAS THE TRANSFORMERS RIDE OMG I WAS LIKE "FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUU--------" FOR THE -WHOLE- RIDE LOL. I THOUGHT I WAS GONNA DIE OF HAVING NO WORDS TO SAY DURING THE WHOLE RIDE LOLOLOLOL And we sat RIGHT IN FRONT. SO IT WAS AWESOME. DAMN lol, after trying all the rides already, we thought of doing the transformers ride again - but the waiting time was still as horrid as about an hour long at least lol. So yes, on average, if its a clear sunny day, an hour's long of wait is usual.. I won't complain about that because its something thats hard to avoid (: But thank goodness, for the next two rides, because of the rainy weather where people gave up queueing for the two outdoor roller coaster rides, we got in without much waiting :D LOL WE SAW MOM CLOSE HER EYES FOR THE RED ROLLER COASTER HAHAHAHAHHA AND SIS WAS LIKE "AIYO SO WASTED LOL!!!" and when she further told us "Nvm, sometimes I close one eye only." sis went "OMGGG EVEN WORSE LOLOL" HAHAHAHAHAH THAT WAS SO FUNNY. PLUS OUR STUPID WTF :OOOOO FACES TAKEN ON THE CAMERA LOOKED LIKE "LOLOLOLOLOL" my mouth gapped wide open, and sis's as well LOL we were laughing at each other HAHAHAHAHA.

AND DAMN LOL SIS AND I TOOK THE 360-TURN BLUE RIDE TWO TIMES AHAHAHAHAHA IT WAS SO FUCKING AWESOME LOLOLOLOL. Mom didn't take this one because the red one was just nice for her already XD!!!!! DAMN THIS RIDE WAS JUST FUCKING AWESOME. The transformers one was just AWESOME, that 3D experience and all that. BUT THIS ROLLER COASTER RIDE WAS SO FUCKING THRILLING LOLOLOL I told sis, "Yeah...gonna be addicted" HAHAHA. OH YA! The second time we took the blue ride, I suggested "...Lets seat at the first row this time round." AND LOLOLOL THAT WAS JUST FUCKING AWESOME SHIT LOLOLOLOL Damn I really never knew roller coasters were meant to be THIS THRILLING. I was always afraid or not really interested because I always feel that, because of my weight and small size, I may really FLY OUT of my seat. But now that I think about it, there are YOUNGER CHILDREN TAKING THIS. So I was like '...yeah, they're even lighter than me.." So yeah, I HAVE THUS CHANGED MY OPINION OF ROLLER COASTER RIDES NOW, AND I LOVE THEM HAHAHAHAHA.

So anyways, those were more of the highlights of the day for all of us - since we're all adults, these attractions were better to us in our opinion. the kids rides that we sat are relaxing, and a good way to slow down the day.... THOUGH IN THE END SIS AND I TOOK THE BLUE RIDE (SECOND TIME) AS OUR ENDING RIDE OF THE ADVENTURE HAHAHA. Just DAMN LOL WE'RE SUCKERS FOR THIS THRILLING EXPERIENCE. ah well.

oh yes, we had pizza for lunch! It was really niceeeeee. When we just entered USS, sis and I were like "... I smell nice pizzas." so yeah, that just decided the pizza's fate for our lunch ;D THEN WE HAD CHILLI'S FOR DINNER at around 10pm. DAMN THAT WAS SO DAMN NICE. THE FOOD WE SHARED WAS JUST SO FUCKING AWESOME. I JUST *HAVE* TO EAT AT CHILLI'S AGAIN I FUCKING SWEAR. (http://chilis.sg/) I JUST MUST. EAT. AT. CHILLI'S. AGAIN. I DON'T CARE. DAMN I SHALL JUST DRAG YOU PEOPLE TO TRY IT OUT. ITS FUCKING AWESOME - to me anyways. FREE FLOW OF MAJOR DRINKS - the blackberry iced tea was NICE! And the chicken crisps, and the starting salad. BIG PORTIONS, REAL HONEY MUSTARD SAUCE, NICE CHICKEN CRISPS AND BRILLIANT FRIES, SALAD, CORN DAMN ALL JUST IN TWO DISHES ONLY! JUST... FUCK, I MUST EAT AT CHILLI'S AGAIN. Aside from RWS, there's one at tanglin mall ;D

I think that's about it for today, really. It was just really fun at USS, and the general experience at RWS was good ^^ I don't know if I'll go back again, but...
...Yeah, I think its just blatantly obvious how much I enjoyed myself HAHAHAHAHA

CIAO!

fun days

so I went to Desaru for a nice getaway at the Lotus Beach Resort with my uni clique – 6 of us in total. And it was fun because of the good company! I wouldn’t say that the resort is top-knotch, but whenever you have good company – usually everything turns out GOOD! (: and it helped that we didn’t argue at all during our stay there. We lived under one roof in a 3 bedroom apartment lol – and I was pretty worried that we’d argue who’d use the bathroom, or whether we could share some toiletries etc. but thank God that we all were open with all these things and didn’t mind it at all.
I wonder what it’d be like if I lived like that with you girls instead? We might end up arguing over certain things :p not that I’m saying we definitely WILL, but with our friendship on the line, damn I’m pretty afraid of that. I’m usually anything, but I don’t know about some of you XD we’ve all been separated all over the place for too long that we’re not spending almost everyday together now, unlike during our secondary school days heh. I do hope though, that if we ever go on a trip together, that we still be respectful, humble, and give-and-take to each other (:

Anyways, back to the original intent of this post lol. To start off, damn we had to wake up early to catch the first train at 540 so as to make sure we wouldn’t be late for the coach lol >< though at first, we were to go by ferry, but a few weeks before departure, the guide told us the ferry terminal to Desaru suddenly got shut down – or something like that. So we had to wake up pretty early to catch the coach instead =W= 5am – I haven’t woken up THAT early in a LONG LONG while LOL. Oh yes, when I boarded the train, it was pretty surprising to see that the seats were almost full already! I had TOTALLY expected (and wanted) an empty train of sorts for the peace and quiet, but I guess not.

So it’s officially my first time out of the country on my own with friends – and it was a really really good experience. I really enjoyed it a lot.¬¬ all that independency was refreshing. Being out of my family’s protection but at the same time we looked out for each other – I’m really, really glad we cared for each other that way, especially when we passed the borders yup.

silvia and I sat beside each other for the whole journey during the coach and we were the two who were always sleeping LOL especially the first day before we reached the resort.

so after we passed the border, they took us to the fruit farm as per the itinerary. but before that, we had a short stop for breakfast at the JB area since some of the other passengers (who signed up for the same tour package to Desaru) requested for a breakfast stop. the 6 of us ended up eating at a cafe instead of the coffee shop. most of us were feeling full already, so we just had something light like toast and/or beverage. I had thick toast spread with peanut on top ^^

so after that we slept on the coach (again) and headed for the fruit farm. TBH, Amanda and I weren't really listening to what the guide was saying, we were just doing some photo-taking of the plants there and doing some of our own observations (; scientist much? heh plus we got to taste really fresh, albeit really sweet too, passionfruit juice. yup it was fresh alright,with all that crushed pulp lol. it was quite an eye-opener to be seeing all those plants and fruit trees actually. they also had a zoo lol. a mini zoo. which I think was... well I don't really like going to zoos because the animals are kept there in captivity. seeing animals in cages isn't something I enjoy much. they should be free (: I guess you could say that farm was a pretty commercialized one, even the guide said so himself, so I was thinking to myself "money-leeching bastards" lol. I hope the animals there are treated okay at least.

so anyways, after that we had a... what they called "fruit lunch" but to me, it was like regular lunch LOL. when the itinerary read "fruit lunch" I really thought it was lunch FULL OF FRUITS ONLY. which would've been fine as well. but anyways, the lunch was niceeeee. I wouldn't say it was DELICIOUS, but it was good enough for my taste and appetite haha. I ate quite a bit lol :p then after that we had a little talk on bees keeping management - or summin' like that. silvia was like "omg.. I don't want to sit through a LECTURE when we're on holiday! -.-" HAHAHAHAHA I agreed with that. at least they gave each of us a sampling of honey ;) and it was TASTYYY. and I was sooo tempted to start a new habit of taking a spoon of honey everyday LOL yeah... since they say good honey is nutritious. ah well.

and that was the end of the tour on the itinerary. the rest was just free and easy, like we wanted, and the tour guide left us to our own stuff for the rest of the stay thank goodness lol it was more like, the fruit farm tour was a complimentary thing LOL the real tasty bit was just having time to ourselves hahahaha. so when we arrived at the resort, OMG IT WAS CROWDED. yeah.. so it was goodbye to peaceful quiet days. but hmm, maybe it was better that way, since I was with friends and enjoying the quiet days with my own stuff isn't really nice lol. better to just spend your time with company (; I can always do my own things on my own time at home or something anyways. so! hmm.. we started off playing card games, as usual we did monopoly and uno lolololol. whilst snacking heh. but at the end of it all we were too tired already lol and so some of us ended sleeping for a while (silvia did) I think I did too, on the chair lol.

by the time we were ready to head to the beach, it was about... 5 or something. we spend about two hours there just putting our feet in the crashing waves hahaha. and camwhoring. lol. it was really nice to step on the sand barefooted and all. been a few months since we last did that haha. though, the first time we stepped into the water was with our slippers on. AND ONE OF MINE ALMOST FLOATED AWAY LOLOLOLOL thank goodness Kai Bin was quick... but she got wet because of that haha >_> after that we just decided to head back to our room for a bath and of course, our instant noodles dinner. we had in our plans to go drinking that night too, at the bar, after our dinner and some games and some tv haha. I ended up sleeping a bit whilst waiting for amanda to finish bathing (I'd already showered by then). seiously, for the whole day, I was just so tired whenever we'd finished any activity lol, and silvia too. we both slept late the other day hahaha. well actually, I had lights off at about 11-12, but could only sleep TWO HOURS LATER OMG. I was rolling in my be with alot of things on my mind zzz. so I ended up having only like, what, 3 hours of real sleep? wth lol. ah wells. back to the post.

so we went drinking, AND IT RAINED THEN! haha. the whole day was just dry until night, thank goodness! well of course we were stranded in the rain till about 11pm+ lol only Kay and I drank non-alcoholic beverages - we had fruit punch lol. the rest drank alcoholic stuff. and Kai Bin got red so fast lol - the other girls kept teasing her about it XD plus we had wedges to go along, with mayo and mustard NAISE. I MUST EAT WEDGES WITH MUSTARD AND MAYO AGAIN SOME TIME. sadly we didn't bring games with us so we could only talk and self-entertain lolol. but it was alright. when the rain let up, we decided to return to our apartment before the rain got heavier again lol. so the last thing we did before sleeping was MASKING! yes, we brought out masks along for the trip and did them together as the before-sleep activity :D it was a nice quiet peaceful time we had. haha.

by the time we went to sleep, it was about 1am I think. ALL of us were too freaking tired already lol so it was really easy to fall asleep, unlike the previous night for me -.-' it was a REALLY good sleep I swear lol. though the next morning when I woke up my arms were kinda aching lol. we then had breakfast at the resort ballroom before leaving on the coach. the guide then told us suddenly he'd prepared a surprise extra activity - and he brought us to this food festival, which was only like 2/5 opened lol. only a few of the stalls were open, but at least he gave each of us 10 RM worth of coupons to spend at the fair. so yeah I spent some of it on water apples since my parents like them and gave the rest to weng lin since I had nothing else to buy really haha. then we all just headed for the border and back to singapore after that~ we discussed and decided to have dinner together at causeway point lol, but Kai Bin ended up throwing up before we even ate anything - she looked really uneasy so we sent her home first after the rest of us ate, before going back ourselves~ AND THAT WAS THE END OF THE TRIP! yup.

lol one thing is, when we entered Singapore, it just started to get REALLY DARK. AND IT RAINED WHILST WE WERE ON THE BUS TO KRANJI MRT LOLOLOL. three of us missed the bustop, and so they had to walk all the way back to kranji from the next stop LOL. WHILST IN THE HEAVY RAIN. HAHAHA. damn seriously this whole trip was FULL of funny/memorable things happening HAHAHAHA.

thanks to the good company this trip was really good ^^ AND FUNNY hahahahahaha XD