hmm..

sorry guys but I really wanna get this off my mind.

I just had a little chat with Dan this morn' and till now I CAN'T FREAKING THINK STRAIGHT. Someone please please PLEASE pull me back down to earth, like, using the ET method, or "Earth calling to Wanwan" method.

My Second Thoughts are screaming, "STOP thinking Shi Wan, it does no good to your health, your mood, OR your REALITY. There's no absolute credibility to what that person is saying. For all we know, he might be a fraud who just enjoys telling you things to make you dance in the palm of his hand like some idiot who can't think for herself about how he's lying to you about EVERYTHING. You're so naive!"

And my Third Thoughts are telling me, "She's right, you know, your Second Thoughts. You should just take everything he says with 100% salt in it. You know your reality is better than this. And you ALSO know that you *don't* want to go back to THOSE days again. Both of us, your Second and Third Thoughts, understand how much your First Thoughts are preventing you from falling back to Earth. When can we kiss the-online-life completely goodbye you girl? How many years has it been?! PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER."

And my second thoughts continued with "You DO know that ONE day, your special someone will turn up. Its just a matter of time, and you already know that you aren't ready now, so what's the point? IT MAKES YOU MALFUNCTION! You're lucky she and I - your Third Thoughts and myself the Second - are here to REMIND you of your REALITY! NOW ARE YOU GOING TO FREAKING SAVE US FROM BEING DROWNED IN YOUR IMAGINATION OR LEAVE US TO DIE HUH?!"

"Alright alright! Give me a day to sleep it off, alright?" that's what I'm saying to my thoughts right now. And they warily agreed to my request.

I just hope it works.