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I know I'm probably too sensitive about certain things, but that's how I handle them..

For example, I'm actually really sensitive towards Joseph, its probably because of how I see him in a different light.. he's a friend, but he could also be more than a friend. the fact that he thinks similarly but isn't doing anything about it just spells "No thank you" to me. I admit I'm also too busy to date, but he doesn't treat me as someone "I've known for 9 years". He DID say "Well, I've known you for 9 years, that just spells something." It used to mean something to me, but now? No, it doesn't. "I'm more close to my uni friends right now." Well sure, who wouldn't be lol, in their first year, I'm also happily friends with uni people. But even so, I also expressed interest in meeting him up in school once in a while, and on numerous occasions. But he didn't do the same. I guess I should never have expected anything from him. That's when I started thinking, I can never get along with this person. So I decided I never wanted to have anything to do with him ever again. So what did I do? I blocked him off msn, facebook, and ignored any message he sent. See, THAT'S how I handle things when it comes to this person. Previously I would just get him off my mind, but now, no thanks - I don't want to have anything to do with this person anymore. He's a stranger in my life, and that stays permanent.

another example would be HM. I'm not spelling out that name here because that person has the url to my blog - though whether he actually VISITS it is another issue. Anyway.. I'm pretty sure you all know about how I thought I might be liking this person some months ago. But recently, I found out he has a girlfriend now. Was I devastated? Admittedly, somewhat. So I told myself that I was probably confused with how he treated me so well when he was back in Singapore, that it gave me some vibes. But in the end, it turned out my hunches were wrong ^^' Now that he's back again, I.. haven't the desire to meet him up in a group. I just don't know how to face him and I also don't want to see him. So that's how I'm handling this.. I'm just not meeting him up for the time being. I don't want to talk to him either. I don't know when he'll be going back though.

So there you have it.