massive post

that I accumulated throughout the exam period in notepad.
*copies and pastes*

--------------------------April 20---------------------------

...Had four periods of hiccups yesterday. :\\

And today my mouse keeps dropping onto the floor :\\
And also today, my muscles and bones feel like they're gonna die :\\

Is it okay to still think about your past love even now?
Is it okay to still drop tears when you think about it?
(Yeah, this is a question.)

I think...To love someone is really a choice, a decision..
I'm beginning to slowly accept that notion, and that waiting for the right person just isn't going to accomplish anything. I don't know if you girls(or any guy who reads my blog as well LOL), approach love and relationships like I do now, but this is a conclusion I've come to after years and after talking about it with various people. You can like someone, but..its different. I don't exactly know how to put this into words, but having someone to like, and choosing someone, are two completely different things. Sometimes when you've waited for so long you feel like giving up already, you end up taking the guy who's "most available".
Not to sound horrible, but sometimes its true. When I think about myself doing something like that, the ultimate question that perks me is "Would it be possible to grow to love that person?" even if in the beginning there wasn't anything.

Ughhhh, after that hiccup fit yesterday, I feel like my upper body's breaking apart :\

--------------------------April 22---------------------------

imagine listening to In Flames when you've just got home burnt out from exam+revision at school the whole day till 9pm. its awesome shit. a wave of 10000% metal song-induced drowsiness will overwhelm you, and you'd feel like "shit..." *faints*

Oh right, my glasses almost died on me today. well it did, but MOMMY FIXED IT BACK FOR ME. THANK YOU MOM. I LOVE YOU. to think my nightmare would come true :\
see I was having a nightmare about being really late for the exam today, and yeah.
well I wasn't the least bit late, but I could've reached earlier. the reason in the dream and the reason IRL are different though. LULZ.

--------------------------April 23---------------------------

OMG. 12:30am. BAT. IN. THE. HOUSE. *FREAKING FASCINATED* SO CUTEE! Wanted to take a photo but couldn't, too dark. And no, I don't use flash on bats.
Awwww, it was trying to find its way out via sensing air flows, says my sis when
she came back not long after the bat flew in. Sis is so smart o.o

Side note, I think guys on facebook who have an all-female friends list are P.A.T.H.E.T.I.C. Yes, you heard me right, shitty guys. :\

On another side side note, I feel like I've just sniffed in thousands of bat-pollen lol xD


--------------------------April 27---------------------------

....there was an unknown bug FLYING AND BZZZING around my room throughout the WHOLE night, that I didn't really get a good sleep :\ Every once in a while, I'd hear "bzzzz. bam! bam! bzzz!!!" ugh, and I was DEAD tired. So yes, whenever I woke up to
that, I fell asleep a few seconds later. But WTF? STOP BZZING. I WANT TO SLEEP OKAY?!?!?!
Then right now I've unconvered the bug's identity: it's some kind of moth. WTF?

Posted April 28th, 2010