hmm.

Happy April Fool's and Good Friday to you all, though its late.

Celebrated Daphne's birthday on Good Friday x) Treated her, and myself, to a nice foot massage x) Next time, we should do a spa. A simple one, perhaps? Or onsen at Japan =DD

Anyways, just a few things..
Sorry the picture post isn't up yet, it probably won't be up anytime soon, I don't know when I'll be like literally free again. I will be when I've done enough revision for a day or something, but then I'd want to use the time to watch my anime instead of taking photos =X Although, I *am* excited about the picture post, so look forward to it~

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You know, everytime there's a public holiday that extends my weekend, I tend to loose track of time and play for a day, thinking that I "have nothing on next week". Meaning, I don't have any assignments due. But alas, I always do, like reading notes and preparing for tutorials and stuff. I played for a full two days without doing any revision during this extended minibreak (its in conjunction with e-learning week. so no school on thursday either mwahahahaha.), the only reading up I did was to revise fully on the Japanese lessons taught so far. That's all. And as I'm typing this out, I'm also reviewing the e-lectures uploaded, i.e. E-LEARNING WEEK. So its E-LEARNING. The plan is to review every module's e-lecture today. So sunday I can do other things.

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I've been feeling..disappointed in myself lately. The past two weeks were a rush of disappointment in some way. Academic disappointment..Right now I'm not gonna think about it anymore, and the "pass-fail" thing salvages everything, so there's nothing much to worry about. Its a confirmed pass even if I don't look at any results. But you guys know me...I become beyond devastated when I mess up things. Sorry I'm not putting any details here, so just take this as it is. Its just one module btw, so its not that bad (:

And emotional disappointment - in myself. I feel like I really need to change myself back to how I was "then". Maybe daily school life changed my character, I don't know. But I found myself doubting this really close friend of mine, like as if I should just break it off since it feels as if nothing's working out.

(I'm not going to post details here, nor anywhere, because this is far too personal. Its a very sensitive issue to me, so no one knows about it.)

I feel like I really need to start from *that point* onwards, and be understanding, and never doubt that person nor his/her intentions. Because I know that person would never think ill of me, nor will that person do things that would hurt me. Just that recently, because of a certain message that I interpreted the wrong way, I start to question whether that person finds my habits a nuisance..So I'm going to try my hardest and not give trouble to that person anymore. I...I don't know the word for this, but I want to become humble again, in a sense. I want to become thoughtful for that person, and I want to beyond 100% believe in that person. I find it hard to not be judgemental of anyone, is that okay? Its really hard to describe my feelings on this matter...

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Kobato. episodes 23 and 24 were such tearjerkers, I bawled my eyes out ;_; Twas soooooooo sad and heartbreaking, and Fujimoto-san is SUCH a TSUNDERE! But at least the ending was satisfactory. So these two episodes were a BOMB! It salvaged the entire filler-type-episodic series. The manga is still ongoing though, and I am looking forward to the next chapter~ Kobato is SUCH a cutie heheh.

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Nodame Cantabile: Finale's last two episodes were FAR too rushed. Sad ): Those two episodes destroyed it for me. They had a nice build up from episode 1 right till 9, then 10 and 11 just blew it :\ Ah well.

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I think that should be all, for now. I can't remember what else I wanted to blog about, so that's it. Ciao~~~

Posted April 3rd, 2010

otome games. artbooks. pictures needed. whatnot.

Yeah, as the title says. In school right now, studying. But I'm taking a short break to write a blog post.

@ Maybo:
I gots purty nails tew now =X Silvery white n' transparent. Flower-like, spiral and rose stickers on alternate fingers. Yeah I'm not posting pictures just yet. Too lazy.

And my こばと。artbook finally arrived. And it was worth my money. Will put pictures up when I have the time, because Heng Min insisted on photos. And my japanese manga arrived as well. Love it. Honestly, I can't wait to read them in original japanese. The Japanese lessons so far have introduced hiragana already, and now we're going into katakana. Test on friday on about 80% of the katakana x_X And there was lots taught on tuesday (katakana+months+years+special dates pronounciations + + + + + etc etc etc), couple that with having to stay back four hours for group project discussion for another module, and you have a tired Wan-Wan. I thought I was gonna die :\ Freaking tired, like seriously. And now my eyes feel like they're going to pop out any minute :\

And I just realized yesterday that my physics midterms are next week lulz. I didn't keep track of time, so I only realized it then :\ The only date I remembered was "25th March" and I was thinking, "...What date is it today?" Yeah :\ Not to mention my physics sucks ass :\

Oh yes, OTOME GAMES! Yeah, I'm like thinking of getting one that's worth my money. Not talking about Tokimeki Memorial Girls' Side here, not all the guys are appealing. I'd rather get a game that has guys that are more worth it >_>
No, I'm just starved for "KYAAAAAAAAAAAAA-ING!!" and some romance.

On to some rants. I hate stupid people, like srsly. I'm carrying a tray of hot soup with noodles, and some idiot just had to bump into me without looking around first. And yeah, soup spilled onto the tray, and the lady beside me almost got it. :\

Next, I hate it when people talk really loudly on the bus. I CAN'T FREAKING LISTEN TO MY MUSIC PROPERLY YOU ASSHOLES. Maybe I should invest in those other earphones instead. But gahh.

Oh and I finally bought the USB fan. Froggy. Its lovely and its saves me the trouble of having to switch on the air conditioner when I'm not sleeping. I don't open the windows in my room because there'd be alot of dust. So no thanks.

Anyway, that's it for now. Hopefully I'll be getting the picture blog post up soon :\
Ciao~

Posted March 17, 2010

i r nawt d34d D:

みんなちん, こんにちわ!!

l33t l4nguag3 r k3wl lulz.


Sorry I haven't updated in ages. Its not really in the agenda anymore, to update regularly, heheheh. But I will post once in a while I guess. Yes, I still remember the photos I said I'd upload for viewing, yeah uh, no idea when. But I'll do it ;P

Just started week 8 of semester. Recess week just ended. Zzzz, had to study, and I didn't manage to watch the stuff I wanted do D: Nevermind...And fingers crossed my application for the Summer Research this year is successful.

Anyway, the recess week. Summer Wars was awesome. But that was this jerk who yawned freaking loudly 3/4 through the movie. Asshole. And there I was, mesmerized by the movie, and he just HAD. TO. YAWN. I should've just shot him dead there and then :\

AND I CAN'T WAIT TO LEARN KATAKANA AND KANJI. LYKE SRSLY. Because I wanna start reading my japanese stuffies D:

Posted March 5, 2010

boo.

みんなさんごめんね, for the lack of updates x3!!
(Minna-san, gomen ne,)

I've actually been pretty occupied with school lately. Loads to read up on, loads of stuff to practice. But fret not!

HAIL MY ONE WEEK TERM BREAK. EVEN THOUGH I'LL BE BUSY TOO. AHAHAHA!

Hmm..not much to say here really..Just wanted to tell you guys that I R NAWT DEAD!
I might post one or two pictures up soon when I can get off my lazy arse and connect my camera to the comp and do single-photo-editing. Sure it doesn't take alot of work, BUT ITS SO MUCH TROUBLE! Okay well, not SO much, but yeah, you get the idea right?

Oh and, my next layout might be "Last Regrets" from "Kanon" or something totally original. Graphics will be DIY-ed yay.

Grats to Jyan for officially ending her exams. Grats to Jo too.

Gawd I can't wait to go out for once next week xD

Anyways, I'll be signing off now. まったね!! (Matta ne!)

On a side note, learning japanese is awesome. Speaking in somewhat fluent japanese is awesome. Writing in japanese is awesome.

とってもうるしかったです!!!!

this post goes out especially to daphne, xin ying, claris and maybo, for making February 10, 2010 a very, very, very special, and overly joyful day (:

thank you so much guys, really.

as of now, I haven't opened ANY Of the presents yet ;D
I want to wait till the 14th instead =DD

to daphne:
thank you a thousand, thousand times for making wednesday so memorable. I was really really touched when xin ying and claris was there with us for dinner. Its the same as last year isn't it? I never knew they were there XD!! Thank you so much, for planning out all this. All the effort, all the smsing, all the running about, all the reservations. If it wasn't for you, none of this would have happened. Having xin ying and claris there at dinner made it all the more merrier and enjoyable too. And the manicure was heavenly!!!! Let's hope this year I'll be able to do the same for you >_< Let's go for pedicure on your bday kay? My treat this time xD Words just can't express how grateful I am for all of this happening to me this year. Its like a chock full of sweetness and overflowing chocolate at the same time xD

to maybo:
thank you so much for giving me a present. thank you so so much!!
enjoy your CNY and valentine's, okay? ^^

to xin ying and claris:
thank you girls, for taking time off your busy schedules to spend the evening with me today. you guys added your own flavors to the whole dish that was to be my birthday surprise (: I was really happy, I really was. And I still am ;)) Just being there with me to do a pre-celebration was enough to make me happy. I was really touched that you guys were there. Thank you so so much! (:

6th February

a mysterious melancholy fills my being this night. it makes my heart heavy, and renders my eyes to be filled with a sorrow that I cannot fathom. I am strangely saddened...but I cannot seem to find the reason why...

for thought.

people are singing too many songs about love when there's not much of it to go round the world at all. it is a sick place, and we're adding loads of shit and rubbish to the already shitty world. the world is a place worse than before, people and society keep pulling their bullshit on you.

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she's giving off vibes that say "I'm a flirt.", and she doesn't realize it. wait till she gets duped and banged. then she'll watch her step. we can't do anything for her if she isn't prepared to accept our harsh opinions, or maybe she's just too much of a hypocrite? she thinks she isn't doing anything wrong, which is what we all do more often than not. we reflect, but does she?

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when you think there's a feeling there, it slips through your grasp before you can hold it tightly to your chest. why am I afraid of being immersed in these feelings? is it because I'm actually not really serious about it? that's hard to accept..

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why am I like this when its about him? gosh, I really need to be more relaxed and understanding and expect less if I'm ever going to stay sane. its always the same - get frustrated -> calm down -> everything fades away -> repeat.

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sometimes we just need people to state the ever-obvious for us; we're just too unwilling to accept the harsh truth on our own. if people state it for us, you usually get it. its always there, dormant, waiting for you to accept it and move on.

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you're free to drown yourself in depression and sorrow, just don't over do it. stop feeling miserable for yourself if you're gonna say bullshit like "there's no such thing as a brighter side in my life.". you need to snap yourself back, even if you have to make harsh decisions. aren't your friends sticking by you? you're losing focus on the simpler things in life. having real love isn't the only thing in the world, you know. so don't pull your bullshit on us and say you can't take it anymore. it'll hurt for a while, but it'll pass, eventually. it always does.

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just so you guys'd know, I'm not actually feeling terribly sarcastic right now. its just stuff I want to put down (:

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last but not least, may God extend His comforting hand over the grieving family. my condolences are with you..

Posted February 4th, 2010