quick update

just a quick one for all of you who're still following my blog. the picture blog post is underway; I'm still working on it. Trying to figure out the best way to post it. I think I might split the post up into two or three parts, with about two or three days in between for you guys to read through each post? Either that or I'll make a few slide shows I guess? So yup.

On a side note, I had a pretty good week today. Monday and wednesday with Daphne - thanks love~ Tuesday with someone else. Thursday at school, Friday with Jehanne at JE Library. Looking forward to next week's badminton with Lynn, hopefully she's free. Monday/Tuesday school seminar thingy. Seems pretty interesting, I might actually stay longer? Hmm. Gonna think up of ways to get out of the house more often... So here's a shout out: ANYONE OF YOU WHO WANTS TO GO OUT AND DO STUFF LEMME KNOW! That is, if you don't mind my coming with you =3

Posted June 5th, 2010

I guess I'm really incompetent sometimes ~

Hey there you guys,

Sorry for the lack of posts. I don't really have much to blog about really, nothing interesting's happening in my life so much as for me to blog about it. Just normal day to day activities, friends, and whatnot. Though for this post its to rant about my incompetency and of course to blabber about what's been going on lately~

When I get pretty immersed in watching anime or playing games, I tend to loose track of time and my mood to do "the more important things" gets kinda ..ruined? Not ruined in a bad way, its just that I don't feel like doing it just yet, you know? I like doing things when I see fit, so its bad when I don't feel like doing things that are more important, just yet.

OH! But its not like I watch anime alot during school semesters. I'm in holidays right now so I do whatever I want to. Its just that summer research has started so..

Well the schedule isn't tight or anything, its a "do it at your own pace" thing. I just have to go see the professor with my other group mate (Kay :3) whenever we're ready to proceed to each next stage. So its bad when I don't do my part. And well I wasted two days watching anime just because I was hooked onto re-watching them. I honestly couldn't stop watching because each story and episode connects everything together. So I've been sleeping late these days... And its also because I finally tried out this english otome game(made by fans for fans!), and got a lil hooked, though not as badly. I know when to stop the game when its time for me to.

(On a side note, man its a little hard to type what with my scalded hand still healing. The hardened brown patches make it difficult to stretch my hand. But ah well..)

Anyways, continuing, this otome game is great. I recommended it to Maybo, but I don't know if she's gotten it yet. (If you haven't, you're welcome to stop by my house ad try it out on my comp or something ;P). Anyone else who wants to try it(its a dating simulation game for females), here's a link to the resources you need:

sakevisual - RE:Alistair++

Its really rare to find ENGLISH otome games, and that this is FREE too! And the art is juicy. Its a really simple game, but aside from that, its very, very enjoyable. So if you're like me - a sucker for reverse harems, or have a spot for bishounen(handsome guys), and don't mind playing dating simulation(DS) games - TRY THIS OUT! Serious! I can't wait for their next DS game to be released, its called Hanamix2. Can't wait! Now I know otome games are pretty fun ;) I've always wanted to try one out, and now that I have, I pray I don't get too hooked and start buying a Nintendo DS or a PS 2/3 just to play the games =\! HENG MIN BETTER DON'T GET ME TOO HYPED UP! >_<

Anyways, the picture post. Well I told May Bo it'd be up soon, but alas, I've been occupied with the above mentioned activities that I haven't finished the editing, at all. So it'll take a while. And uh...its going to be a show off picture post sadly >_>

Okay okay, back to summer research. So the schedule is relaxed! So just keep me posted about any activities you guys wanna do with me, or if you wanna go out with me to walk and talk, or come over, etc. Just let me know, alright? I won't bite! ^_^

Daphne:
Hey dear, I've really been wanting to contact you these days to talk about the suggested meet ups. But its kinda hard for us to talk/sms over the phone >< You're having lessons at night, and me being lazy on the other hand... Hey, really, just make a few decisions on your own, and at your convenience, and tell me instead >_< Though I'll try my best to make arrangements too, with Lynn. AHHH!!! I really want to go over!!! But I don't like going over when I have school stuff going on ): AAHHHHHHHHHH!!!! >< Dad tells me to relax and take these things as what I wanna do, as things that I enjoy. But its kinda hard, because afterall its SCHOOL stuff, you know? School = cannot relax. Its sad, but this is how I'm like x_x

Anyway, continuing, I'm honestly an incompetent ass! Goshhhhh, I really need to learn to discipline myself better!!!!!!! AHHHHHHH!!!!!! *Goes crazy*

Posted May 13, 2010

100th post

Wow, this is like, the 100th post. But aside from that, I'm here to blog. Yes, blog.

Exams are finally over, and I have four months to spare to do the stuff I've left till now to do. Yays. So right now its 11:20pm, I'm waiting for my instant noodles to cool down abit before eating it. Yes, its dinner. Yes, I know its bad. But that's not the issue right now. I'm having a relaxing night by blogging for leisure at my own pace, whilst eating, and then doing stuff later. Its a quiet night, my parents are out attending a wedding dinner, whilst my sis is probably at her boyfriend's, so I'm home alone right now, enjoying this one-person thing right now.

So..in these four months, what have I planned out, and what do I wanna do?

Well first off,

I have summer research in school. And it'll last from May till July. I wonder what other productive things I could do after that before school starts. I was thinking of volunteer work (uh..its just for my resume. But of course to be charitable as well.) at a tuition centre, or maybe do simple community service stuff. Or seminars and the like.

Next, I wanna watch anime!!!! Finally I have the time to DO IT! Yays. *Starts eating the noodles*

Then I wanna read the books I have, maybe do some DIY-accessorizing. Hmm what else..Work out, I suppose? My muscles have been tensed up for a few months because of school.

Oh and speaking of which, I also hope to review the important school work with this break to prepare for year 2.

Anyways, I also wanna replay some games for fun. And I also have a CD project that's been on hiatus, but resumed working on. I hope it turns out well ^^ I'm currently doing the CD booklet.

And also, its probably routine, but I suppose meeting up with my friends is also part of the schedule. Hmm what else...I can't really remember.

So I guess that's about it. I wanna eat my noodles, and watch an episode of Lucky Star. Hopefully my laptop lasts x_X CIAO!

massive post

that I accumulated throughout the exam period in notepad.
*copies and pastes*

--------------------------April 20---------------------------

...Had four periods of hiccups yesterday. :\\

And today my mouse keeps dropping onto the floor :\\
And also today, my muscles and bones feel like they're gonna die :\\

Is it okay to still think about your past love even now?
Is it okay to still drop tears when you think about it?
(Yeah, this is a question.)

I think...To love someone is really a choice, a decision..
I'm beginning to slowly accept that notion, and that waiting for the right person just isn't going to accomplish anything. I don't know if you girls(or any guy who reads my blog as well LOL), approach love and relationships like I do now, but this is a conclusion I've come to after years and after talking about it with various people. You can like someone, but..its different. I don't exactly know how to put this into words, but having someone to like, and choosing someone, are two completely different things. Sometimes when you've waited for so long you feel like giving up already, you end up taking the guy who's "most available".
Not to sound horrible, but sometimes its true. When I think about myself doing something like that, the ultimate question that perks me is "Would it be possible to grow to love that person?" even if in the beginning there wasn't anything.

Ughhhh, after that hiccup fit yesterday, I feel like my upper body's breaking apart :\

--------------------------April 22---------------------------

imagine listening to In Flames when you've just got home burnt out from exam+revision at school the whole day till 9pm. its awesome shit. a wave of 10000% metal song-induced drowsiness will overwhelm you, and you'd feel like "shit..." *faints*

Oh right, my glasses almost died on me today. well it did, but MOMMY FIXED IT BACK FOR ME. THANK YOU MOM. I LOVE YOU. to think my nightmare would come true :\
see I was having a nightmare about being really late for the exam today, and yeah.
well I wasn't the least bit late, but I could've reached earlier. the reason in the dream and the reason IRL are different though. LULZ.

--------------------------April 23---------------------------

OMG. 12:30am. BAT. IN. THE. HOUSE. *FREAKING FASCINATED* SO CUTEE! Wanted to take a photo but couldn't, too dark. And no, I don't use flash on bats.
Awwww, it was trying to find its way out via sensing air flows, says my sis when
she came back not long after the bat flew in. Sis is so smart o.o

Side note, I think guys on facebook who have an all-female friends list are P.A.T.H.E.T.I.C. Yes, you heard me right, shitty guys. :\

On another side side note, I feel like I've just sniffed in thousands of bat-pollen lol xD


--------------------------April 27---------------------------

....there was an unknown bug FLYING AND BZZZING around my room throughout the WHOLE night, that I didn't really get a good sleep :\ Every once in a while, I'd hear "bzzzz. bam! bam! bzzz!!!" ugh, and I was DEAD tired. So yes, whenever I woke up to
that, I fell asleep a few seconds later. But WTF? STOP BZZING. I WANT TO SLEEP OKAY?!?!?!
Then right now I've unconvered the bug's identity: it's some kind of moth. WTF?

Posted April 28th, 2010

KATAKANA NAMES

Another just-for-fun post. Here are some katakana names derived from your original names~~ Enjoy!

Daphne - デフニ - De-fu-ni
Mine - チフニ - Chi-fu-ni
KayLynn - ケイリン - Ke-i-ri-n

May Bo - メイボ - me-i-bo
Jehanne - ジェイヤェン - je-i-ye-n
Jody - ジョディ - Jo-di
Cindy - セィンディ - See-n-di
Hui Ying - ホゥワェイン - Hu-ue-i-n


Note: These are not 100% accurate alright? xD Though Maybo's and Jody's should be just nice.

Note 2: Katakana is a language system used by the Japanese to write non-japanese words based on the original words' syllabus/articulation/whatever.

Note 3: I haven't/can't figure out which names need the long dash to prolong the sound so..forgive me! Su Min might know? Hmm.

just.

I'm feeling damn "seh" right now. Like..blur blur. Had a stomachache this morning, but there was Japanese listening test today, so I *had* go to school. Didn't eat lunch, didn't have any appetite. Ugh....I'm just basically feeling physically unwell right now. And because I didn't really eat anything I'm feeling like jelly heheh -_-;

Just a short post actually, I didn't intend to blog but yeah?

On a side note, the test was...well, okay AT LEAST. But there was this ONE question, the short passage had alot of dollars and cents and yen prices for just two items. And the question was, "What did the person buy?" and I'm like, "...Shit, I didn't take note of the prices. DAMN." ):

Posted April 13, 2010

hmm.

Happy April Fool's and Good Friday to you all, though its late.

Celebrated Daphne's birthday on Good Friday x) Treated her, and myself, to a nice foot massage x) Next time, we should do a spa. A simple one, perhaps? Or onsen at Japan =DD

Anyways, just a few things..
Sorry the picture post isn't up yet, it probably won't be up anytime soon, I don't know when I'll be like literally free again. I will be when I've done enough revision for a day or something, but then I'd want to use the time to watch my anime instead of taking photos =X Although, I *am* excited about the picture post, so look forward to it~

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You know, everytime there's a public holiday that extends my weekend, I tend to loose track of time and play for a day, thinking that I "have nothing on next week". Meaning, I don't have any assignments due. But alas, I always do, like reading notes and preparing for tutorials and stuff. I played for a full two days without doing any revision during this extended minibreak (its in conjunction with e-learning week. so no school on thursday either mwahahahaha.), the only reading up I did was to revise fully on the Japanese lessons taught so far. That's all. And as I'm typing this out, I'm also reviewing the e-lectures uploaded, i.e. E-LEARNING WEEK. So its E-LEARNING. The plan is to review every module's e-lecture today. So sunday I can do other things.

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I've been feeling..disappointed in myself lately. The past two weeks were a rush of disappointment in some way. Academic disappointment..Right now I'm not gonna think about it anymore, and the "pass-fail" thing salvages everything, so there's nothing much to worry about. Its a confirmed pass even if I don't look at any results. But you guys know me...I become beyond devastated when I mess up things. Sorry I'm not putting any details here, so just take this as it is. Its just one module btw, so its not that bad (:

And emotional disappointment - in myself. I feel like I really need to change myself back to how I was "then". Maybe daily school life changed my character, I don't know. But I found myself doubting this really close friend of mine, like as if I should just break it off since it feels as if nothing's working out.

(I'm not going to post details here, nor anywhere, because this is far too personal. Its a very sensitive issue to me, so no one knows about it.)

I feel like I really need to start from *that point* onwards, and be understanding, and never doubt that person nor his/her intentions. Because I know that person would never think ill of me, nor will that person do things that would hurt me. Just that recently, because of a certain message that I interpreted the wrong way, I start to question whether that person finds my habits a nuisance..So I'm going to try my hardest and not give trouble to that person anymore. I...I don't know the word for this, but I want to become humble again, in a sense. I want to become thoughtful for that person, and I want to beyond 100% believe in that person. I find it hard to not be judgemental of anyone, is that okay? Its really hard to describe my feelings on this matter...

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Kobato. episodes 23 and 24 were such tearjerkers, I bawled my eyes out ;_; Twas soooooooo sad and heartbreaking, and Fujimoto-san is SUCH a TSUNDERE! But at least the ending was satisfactory. So these two episodes were a BOMB! It salvaged the entire filler-type-episodic series. The manga is still ongoing though, and I am looking forward to the next chapter~ Kobato is SUCH a cutie heheh.

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Nodame Cantabile: Finale's last two episodes were FAR too rushed. Sad ): Those two episodes destroyed it for me. They had a nice build up from episode 1 right till 9, then 10 and 11 just blew it :\ Ah well.

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I think that should be all, for now. I can't remember what else I wanted to blog about, so that's it. Ciao~~~

Posted April 3rd, 2010