so its 6:27am now, and I'm waiting to board Thai airways 2 hours later. so christmas was yesterday and I had a little feast at mom's aunt's ...though I had diarrhoea later lol.
I gotta say though it didnt really feel like christmas
Saturday, December 25, 2010
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
Saturday, November 27, 2010
for you
hmm..apparently, I just wanted to blog about today.
so I had polymer chemistry test 2 this morn'; got a ride from dad - thank God for that or I'd have to wake up pretty early lol. I reckon I did better for this test than the first, though I'm quite sure most people will be getting 90++ for this test. I'll be happy if I get more than 80. x]
after the test I was like "PHEW. FINALLY!" because yes, I could *finally* plan my schedule for the rest of the day and the upcoming week. so I have a substantial amount of work to do. but....I stayed out at westmall with my family for the better of the afternoon lol. so its 5pm now - really late. so I changed my schedule for the rest of today to "Finish all due work today." Its an achievable goal right? Not too farfetched, heh.
so anyways at westmall it was relaxing. even though at the back of my mind I was a lil worried about relaxing too much, but I believed its a lil rest I deserve. (though I wasn't busy for the week. or more like..not as occupied as last time.) anyways, we had udders, and went watson's-shopping. I -love- doing watson's/guardian-shopping. There's like, an endless amount of stuff you could get from there because everything's in one place lol.
...and I got justin to fold me a crane haha..I wanted it as a keepsake of sorts, but I didn't tell him that of course lol - that'd be stalker-ish. and so the little crane he so meticulously folded (like the previous two aluminium and sample-paper cranes as well; gosh it even has a FOLDED BEAK!) is now sitting atop one of my drawers where its easy for me to look HAHA. no, I'm not stalking here. its not like I WANTED something to remind me of him, no, its not like that. its something different really.
so I already know that he's really not on my list of potentials, he really isn't - that part has really SUNK IN already heh. but I guess it doesn't hurt to be an otome ^^ I know he's not the right type, but I still like him nonetheless. I reckon my cheeks get red when I talk about him, I get a lil shy, I'm happy when I see him - the normal reactions really. its nothing much, and I'm not getting too carried away, nor too stupid to realize things. but I'm happy nonetheless. I have this like-hate thing when it comes to him. that really quiet-I-don't-bother attitude of his I really can't stand - I actually ASKED about it, and all he had to say about it was "Ya.". Thats it. Lol. Ah well. I'm crushing on a guy like that, lol. But it'll be over soon anyway, I know it will, because when you loose regular physical interactions with someone you like, the feeling will fade. its sad, but I know it'll happen. and I'm interested in whether it'll really be this way. the future is, afterall, unpredictable. (though I'm almost really sure nothing's gonna come out of crushing on him).
gosh I think this sounds really mushy. I think I'm gonna tone it down tomorrow when I read this tomorrow lol.
posted 27th november, 2010.
so I had polymer chemistry test 2 this morn'; got a ride from dad - thank God for that or I'd have to wake up pretty early lol. I reckon I did better for this test than the first, though I'm quite sure most people will be getting 90++ for this test. I'll be happy if I get more than 80. x]
after the test I was like "PHEW. FINALLY!" because yes, I could *finally* plan my schedule for the rest of the day and the upcoming week. so I have a substantial amount of work to do. but....I stayed out at westmall with my family for the better of the afternoon lol. so its 5pm now - really late. so I changed my schedule for the rest of today to "Finish all due work today." Its an achievable goal right? Not too farfetched, heh.
so anyways at westmall it was relaxing. even though at the back of my mind I was a lil worried about relaxing too much, but I believed its a lil rest I deserve. (though I wasn't busy for the week. or more like..not as occupied as last time.) anyways, we had udders, and went watson's-shopping. I -love- doing watson's/guardian-shopping. There's like, an endless amount of stuff you could get from there because everything's in one place lol.
...and I got justin to fold me a crane haha..I wanted it as a keepsake of sorts, but I didn't tell him that of course lol - that'd be stalker-ish. and so the little crane he so meticulously folded (like the previous two aluminium and sample-paper cranes as well; gosh it even has a FOLDED BEAK!) is now sitting atop one of my drawers where its easy for me to look HAHA. no, I'm not stalking here. its not like I WANTED something to remind me of him, no, its not like that. its something different really.
so I already know that he's really not on my list of potentials, he really isn't - that part has really SUNK IN already heh. but I guess it doesn't hurt to be an otome ^^ I know he's not the right type, but I still like him nonetheless. I reckon my cheeks get red when I talk about him, I get a lil shy, I'm happy when I see him - the normal reactions really. its nothing much, and I'm not getting too carried away, nor too stupid to realize things. but I'm happy nonetheless. I have this like-hate thing when it comes to him. that really quiet-I-don't-bother attitude of his I really can't stand - I actually ASKED about it, and all he had to say about it was "Ya.". Thats it. Lol. Ah well. I'm crushing on a guy like that, lol. But it'll be over soon anyway, I know it will, because when you loose regular physical interactions with someone you like, the feeling will fade. its sad, but I know it'll happen. and I'm interested in whether it'll really be this way. the future is, afterall, unpredictable. (though I'm almost really sure nothing's gonna come out of crushing on him).
gosh I think this sounds really mushy. I think I'm gonna tone it down tomorrow when I read this tomorrow lol.
posted 27th november, 2010.
Sunday, November 21, 2010
another two more times...
...and it'll be over, and I will probably never get another chance to actively interact with justin again. even with his email, its hard to actually chat him up. though maybe once in while it might work, but I can expect either a 3- or 2-alphabet word for replies, with extremely minimum elaboration. that's why I prefer the him in real life, though there's not ALOT of difference, but I can at least see his expressions.
so I'm really kinda sad about it, and I'm going to make the best chatting out of these last two sessions.
so I'm really kinda sad about it, and I'm going to make the best chatting out of these last two sessions.
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Hmm.
If I cry more than I feel really happy about a situation, is it a sign that reality wants me to accept, or am I thinking far too much about it?
lol
actually I think my facebook is better than my blog haha. Easier to post simple status updates, random shit, emo stuff, etc etc etc. but having a blog allows me to elaborate haha, which is better in another way
Friday, November 12, 2010
gorecki
HE HAS FACEFUCKINGBOOK.
I'm pretty pissed about finding out about that, because I really DID NOT WANT to know.
How I found out? See I needed a more effective way of contacting him (for school work purposes) so I asked, and he said email/online. Then I had the itchy hand to use the friends finder on facebook for fun, and saw he was there. And I clicked. And voila, pissed me.
And neither am I going to be the one doing the adding. No, never, until I'm on better terms with him, which, IMO, is never going to happen because he is probably THAT MUCH uninterested in being friends.
I can't believe I'm affected so much by someone like that. I don't know why either (this is my favourite sentence). No matter how much I try, I can't see him normally as just merely an acquaintence; I'm very conscious of his presence. And I'm just so fucking ridiculously affected that its fucking absurd.
I think I'm gonna loose it; I'm gonna loose this fight. I'm gonna give up on this whole thing sooner or later. Just three more sessions and we'll see how everything's gonna turn out.
Till then..I'm just gonna let things be, and not attempt to talk at all. I really can't take it when he's so unresponsive.
Btw, this blog is private. So if there's anyone from NTU reading my blog, kindly tag in the chatbox. Though i highly doubt there's anyone since i've kept the url to this blog private.
I'm pretty pissed about finding out about that, because I really DID NOT WANT to know.
How I found out? See I needed a more effective way of contacting him (for school work purposes) so I asked, and he said email/online. Then I had the itchy hand to use the friends finder on facebook for fun, and saw he was there. And I clicked. And voila, pissed me.
And neither am I going to be the one doing the adding. No, never, until I'm on better terms with him, which, IMO, is never going to happen because he is probably THAT MUCH uninterested in being friends.
I can't believe I'm affected so much by someone like that. I don't know why either (this is my favourite sentence). No matter how much I try, I can't see him normally as just merely an acquaintence; I'm very conscious of his presence. And I'm just so fucking ridiculously affected that its fucking absurd.
I think I'm gonna loose it; I'm gonna loose this fight. I'm gonna give up on this whole thing sooner or later. Just three more sessions and we'll see how everything's gonna turn out.
Till then..I'm just gonna let things be, and not attempt to talk at all. I really can't take it when he's so unresponsive.
Btw, this blog is private. So if there's anyone from NTU reading my blog, kindly tag in the chatbox. Though i highly doubt there's anyone since i've kept the url to this blog private.
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