Wednesday, November 3, 2010

justin. that's his name.

its tough liking a guy
who shows almost absolute ZERO interest in talking/chit-chatting.
who gives you just a nod without a smile if you see him around the campus.
who replies any sms with one-liners.

what's with him that he doesn't reply when I complimented him on his new hair? =\

even so, I find it hard to just stop liking him. he's tall, he looks pretty good to me, I really do like it when he smiles, jokes with me, and does silly stupid bo-liao things during lab class(we're lab partners). I was weighing some stuff at the sample area in the lab, and he came up to me, holding up an aluminium-foil folded CRANE. I was like, "...Wth? You really are THAT bored eh? LOL" then we went back to our seats, and he said "That poor bird needs a friend. *takes used weighing paper and folds another crane*" I had this -_- and XD LOL expression written all over my face and he was probably amused by how I found it so absurd.

lol and that joke with smells. (we were figuring out the odours of some samples). I won't say it here because some of you might find it gross. LOL BUT I COULDN'T STOP LAUGHING. We were guessing and trying hard to link what we were smelling, to something/anything. Then he looked at me and said, "Do you know what this really smells like?" so I asked, and he whispered something really softly, and I was like "Really? oO". And it was only THIRTY SECONDS LATER when I mingled with my other friends in the lab that I burst out laughing at the absurdity of what he said LOL. At first it wasn't funny, but the more I thought about it, the more absurd it was LOL. I JUST COULDN'T STOP LAUGHING xDDDD

When he saw me laughing like that I bet he was so amused by my reaction, that he himself started laughing too lol. That was the best smile coming from him for that day.. I can't forget that smile on his face at that instant. I just can't forget it, whenever I think back to that smells joke, I remember his smile instantly. Then I feel my cheeks getting red :\

at first, during the first few lab sessions, I felt really useless because HE KEPT DOING EVERYTHING OMG WTH. Okay well, not everything, but almost all of it. but recently I decided to just let myself be a little spoiled lol. but of course I do whatever I can whilst he's doing something else.

but outside of class he's just a tree log. what's up with that?

he's very difficult to talk to, because he just doesn't talk. all the waiting time for reactions in the lab, he doesn't chat. AT ALL.

outside of class, he's no gentleman. he doesn't smile at you, he prefers looking scary. BUT I SWEAR MY HEART SKIPS A BEAT WHEN I SEE HIM, regardless of whether he's smiling, or looking like a statue, and whether I'm pissed at him for being such a jerk-like person. But I won't lie. Though I'm not heads over heels for him, I can't help it if I get a doki doki moment. And don't be "woooooooo! shi wan likes him!" with me lol.

but he's just..no gentleman manners. but okay, like daphne said, maybe he's only nice to his girlfriend, God knows if he has one. Anyways, he doesn't greet you, doesn't ask about you, or anything.

okay, I get it that he isn't interested, but isn't it basic courtesy to greet someone you know? like WARMLY? I do that to him, he doesn't return the warm gesture. wth? that's just absurd. maybe not everyone greets, but honestly ugh lol.

I'm torn about how he's so jerk-like, and how I still find myself liking him.

maybe this'll fade, like the two previous guys. but this guy's been the furthest I've went, wtf is it with me starting to like someone like that? I must be out of my mind. there's no way in hell that I'm gonna lower my standards.
I'll see how things go, I'm pretty sure it'll be resolved soon enough. If not...well, we'll get to that later. but I admit, I like him. What a jerk though.

anyone got ideas how to handle liking someone like that? aside from ignoring hiim lol.

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