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Its afternoon here on 22nd January, a thursday. Going soon for a lunch-cum-dinner before I go to work heheh. I kind of dread going to work now..When I think of all the mistakes I'll be making, the hectic rushing, and just everything else - I really don't like it -_-;

But that's not the point of this post...I need to get something off my chest.

Just yesterday I clarified things with ____, and the dilemas and problems - they were all solved happily. We reached a certain understanding that was satisfactory to the both of us. But this morning when I woke up - I felt like everything has changed...We can't go back to the way we were before - those innocent-playful days. I don't know why but it feels so different - in a sad way. I don't know which part of this I'm sad about, but I just am.

I mean, I'm happy about what ___ said. __ and I both understand and agree that it may not work out in the end but that wouldn't stop us from getting closer, from dating each other. But....its because we know, me especially, that this proba...Wait, I'm being pessimistic again. I shouldn't say that, and I should stop thinking about the bad parts. Because instead of believing that in the end this surely won't work out, I should hope and put in effort to shape this into something that WILL work out. Nothing's set in stone - beliefs and perspectives are bound to change. But still...Before yesterday I was really happy and hopeful, but now I don't feel the same way anymore. Maybe after a while I will return to being happy - but for now..I'm still sad. I suppose sadness can't be washed away in a matter of hours - it lasts for a time..