....Of sorts.

I've temporarily stopped looking for a job. After the Tampines interview, I was feeling a bit satisfied already, and I felt like "doing what I like to do", so I just stopped with the job hunting, for now.

So anyway, I haven't made any new year resolutions, have I? Its already too late for that, and I don't have a habit of doing it. 2009 is gonna be one hell of a ride, they say. It makes me think as if the upcoming Chinese New Year (CNY) won't be very satisfying. I think many people have realised that as the years go by, the Christmas and CNY seasons become less and less enjoyable. Or maybe its because of "the aging process" - as we get older, our festive moods gradually dissipates. I definitely feel that way, and so do some of my friends. I also wonder if my 19th birthday this year will be fun/memorable/whatever. Oh well~

Hmm, what else...Oh yes. Adult fares suck. They really do. Curse those transit b*stards. May they burn in hell -_- From $14 to like, half of it? Wtf. ;\ I shall never travel to the East again unless absolutely necessary. A**holes.

Oh and, I've yet to properly clean up my room. Only some stuff has been cleared. And then there's that study rack outside near the door with all my papers and books that I probably won't need anymore. Oh brother. I really have to clean up the mess (sort of), but sometimes I'm just lazy. Wait, its not that I'm lazy, I just enjoy sitting on my chair doing nothing. ;)

THE A LEVELS. Like, sh*t, the results are gonna be released soon. In a month or two, maybe? I'm scared as hell, and if I were a guy, I'd be wetting my pants every night because of nightmares. I freak out a little when I think about it, so I try not to. To be honest, I really have no idea what I'd do if I couldn't enter the university that offers the course I *want*. Will I have to forsake my goal, and dream of another? Only God knows. I pray for courage to accept my results when I see them. Afterall, you reap what you sow.

On the other hand, if I DO get good results, and I manage to enter my course, my NEW Uni life will start. What will I be going through, I wonder? New experiences, new encounters, and new challenges. (I suck at making friends ._. ) If I can survive one semester, and if I have the money AND time, I shall go to Japan for a few days to visit a friend. But...well, heh. See the thing is, once he's there, he's bound to make new friends. And well..(I hate saying this, really, but- ) I might not be willing to visit him anymore if *something* happens. Afterall, *some* things are predictable. I might plan a trip, but I may not execute it if *it* happens. Who knows...I don't have the power to stop anything from happening, especially something like *that*. But even if *it* doesn't, even if I DO make a quick visit...What will happen after that? Should I leave it to "when it happens then I'll think about it", or should I just think of it as something temporary and that it can never happen? For now...I think its best if I didn't think about it.

(" * " and italics refer to different things.)