Because Maybo wanted me to update.

DETRIOT METAL CITY FUCKING ROCKS!!!!!!!!!
Its the HOTTEST movie I have EVER seen.
Like seriously.
Its a SUPER turn-on.
I just love the last part of the movie where Krauser aka Negishi goes crazy at the concert after beating Jack Ill Dark. He screams, goes wild, it was absolutely fantastic and fanatic.
"I could get wet just by listening to it." - says the boss from DMC.

SATSUGAI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm just to hyped up, so excited. It was just FUCKING LEGENDARY.
Krauser is HOT. Not like physically - he's like this iconic metal head lol. Absolutely HOT HOT HOT. LIke SERIOUSLY.

AND KRAUSER HAS LONG BLOND HAIR. LOL.

Link to the official DMC "Satsugai" song
SATSUGAI

It makes me wet.
I'm sorry but I can't put it any other way lol.
ITS SO FUCKING SEXY.
I just LOVE IT when Krauser is on stage, and when he screams.

ITS FUCKING HOT.

For Jody's sake. And because I'm bored.

1. Work everyday - the usual. Its always fun to work with Maybo at night though >.>

2. Going to start up my blogshop soon.

3. Been too lazy to blog about shit.

4. This is the most notable. WENT OUT WITH KOR TODAY!!! *Happy* I treated him to TCC - because first his birthday is next week, and second he's been the one paying whenever we went out -.- So I figured its my turn haha. For you n00bs out there, Kor is my ex-drums coach-turned-friend. Eh..what goes on during our dates is more-than-friends, but nothing beyond that. Its fun going out with him. He said he had to go back to SMU to continue studying after TCC-ing with me, he suggested visiting the arts museum together after he ends since there's an exhibition that's going on inside the museum. But in the end, he called me up and said, "Aiya, just go to the exhibition first la. On the way anyway, and you don't have to slack around for hours to wait for me." So we ended up going there first. The exhibition was NICE. Its some costume design exhibit by some famous guy Christian La-something. The exhibit was niceeeeee, you all should go there asap kay? Anyway throughout the whole date kor kept teasing me as usual >.< And joked around xD And held me close all the time, especially at the exhibit since it was VERY dark there >.> There was this instant when we entered this secluded area in the exhibit and I felt like he was going to spin me around and kiss me >.< I'm always happy when I'm out on dates with him =X AIYA CAN'T DESCRIBE DE LA!!!!! >_< It just feels very natural when he jokes around and holds me at the same time. Its not like..romantic, or trying into get into the "proper" mood - because there's absolutely nothing else going on between us >.>;;

5. After parting ways with Kor I just walked around Bugis. Bought a new bag for use when I'm going to work, some earring parts, a new pair of egg-wings earrings too. What else..Nothing I guess oO I just took really long to decide whether to spend my money or not. But in the end I still did la, because I sort-of needed the bag anyway lol. And some of the other stuff as well >_> I swear I won't go out next week le lol.

I Can't Stop.

I can feel tears rolling down my cheeks one by one as I lay down on my bed - I think of how I could make my way through the crowd to him to say hello, but he probably won't ever do that to me.

I felt my tears slide down my face as I began to recall how we first met in that place 6 years ago. You were my first Romeo, and until now you were the only one. It was a love story, but no longer..

Why "Romeo"? Because it was love - my first experience with the feeling "love"..And only you were the one with whom I could feel it. No one else...There was no one else..

Romeo sounds cheesy - but there's no other way I can describe it because you were really my first.

Why do tears well up in my eyes whenever I think of what happened, of us, of you, and of myself? I have no more feelings for you - but I'm still crying sometimes..

I want to see you - because I want to know the next chapter of our story - will it be the end of the book, or a reconcilation...or a acknowledgement?...

Edit: I've finally found another reason to get a butterfly tattoo.


Again, I can't be arsed to blog about shit.

But if there's anything I'd like to get off my chest, it would be..

Everyone needs affection of some sort - whether from the opposite sex, from family or from friends.
We all feel lonely deep down inside - I do. I really, really do. Sure I have friends (and I love you all too, a lot), but..There's always this part of me that wishes I could get some sort of affection/care from a guy I have feelings for.

Its just that I have no interest in any one currently - and no one's interested in me either. I really don't want to commit to a relationship right now - unless I really, really *found* someone, you know? I just feel really lonely...

And thus,
Bearing witness to any type of romance - tv, drama, movies, real life - anything of the sort affects me quite a lot..
"Well at least you have someone right? I don't."
It sounds really selfish, but I think I'm entitled to say something like that once in a while.
I recenly finished reading a romance-genre manga, and all those sweet/lovely/kissing/hugging/crying/laughing scenes jerked me up a lot - it made me wish I had a guy like that too. But in the end...I don't think I can ever find someone. Even if I do, I don't think I have the looks/character to attract him anyway...

Kimi dake wo, kimi dake wo, suki de itayo.
"You were the only one, the only one whom I loved."

Its part of the lyrics of the song "Toki wo Kizamu Uta" (the opening song from CLANNAD ~After Story~)- which literally translates to "The song which transcended time".

Kimi dake ga, kimi dake ga, soba ni inaiyo.
"You were the only one, the only one who wasn't by side."

Kimi dake to, kimi dake to, utau uta dayo.
"You are the only one, the only one with whom I will sing this song."

Somehow these phrases relate to me - in a way - not VERY, but yes..
Ben...
Ben..
Ben.

Sometimes, I think of how he was the only guy I have ever really loved so much and so unconditionally. Asking for nothing in return. Imagine how I felt when I realized that I was falling even deeper in love with him even though we'd broken up already and were still good friends.. It was for his sake - all the postcards, birthday cards, christmas cards. If they could put a smile on his face, make him happy even for just a few minutes - I would be satisfied (He goes through shit now and then). Even if I wasn't that important of a friend to him - I wouldn't mind it. But now, I have already moved on (well, actually a year ago), I finally have no more lingering feelings, but I still keep my word and send postcards every now and then. Its all for his sake. I have never loved another since him - and it all happened so long ago..

Just thinking about this makes my eyes teary. I just don't know how to explain this..
I won't go back to the past - because its already history. I know I will meet him someday - although I have no idea when that is..
I have no idea how I would feel - how HE would feel - when we meet. Nostalgic? Elated? Sligtly heartbroken? I think I would really like to kiss him lightly - just for once. I think until then..I shall remain single..Unless someone really good comes along - which is almost impossible.

"Like you once told me, its all in the past..but.."

Er...Update?

Yep, an update. At last lulz.

So yeah, I've collected my results already. Yesterday in fact. Looks pretty good (to me at least). But one of my subjects' grade - its like God's grace. I shall not reveal any details here though. The next challenge is to get accepted into NUS. If not, NTU.

I intend to take either pharmacy or biological science and the like. So wish me luck!~

I worked over time today. Super over time. Actually - extended hours. Just because some stupid girl decided to skip work today due to an "infection" of a wound caused by a SLIGHT burn when she was at work just a few days ago. Mary and I were like, "WTF? Infection? After THREE days already? She's lying, definitely. Bitch."

Its not like I dread working longer, I'm just extremely disappointed and disturbed at how irresponsible this girl is. I'm glad I'm not the only one who DOESN'T like her - everyone else doesn't either lol. We only confessed about it like today? Haha~

What a fucked up attitude. Honestly :\
She does EVERYTHING half-heartedly. She doesn't respect her job. She always wants to get off work ASAP, and when she does, she leaves everything in a mess. Like, not cleaning up the trays, or helping to clean up the tables and stuff. These things are crucial so that the night shift people can take over without much hassle. Asshole of a bitch -_- Not to mention its as if she thinks she's oh-so-important. Dude, she CRIED after getting a slight burn at work, for like half an hour? "Sniff sniff. Its very pain leh!" She made a HUGE fuss over it :\

HARLO. Everyone else got burnt/scalded abit and we NEVER did cry. And wtf, infection? She's just lying, honestly. She's given Mary LOADS of unconvincing reasons each time she "couldn't come to work".

Maybo said the first time she saw that girl, she knew she wouldn't like her. Because of her attitude-ridden face. Vanessa as well. Rachel as well. I only started disliking her after some observation. :\

Oh and there aren't anymore roach attacks ;) Good huh? Vanessa was OVERJOYED! xD

Vanessa is going to leave next week. Rachel most likely as well. Maybo at the end of March. I'll be the only one left there - left to cope with the newcomers :\
Not to mention I think I won't have any off days anymore (I haven't got to enjoy an official off-day :\ ) because of the sudden lack of three part-timers. Sigh.. But I don't intend to quit unless I absolutely have to.

Anyway...Daphne's exams are finally over - she's on a small week-long (I think) break. XY's on a long break. I hope Claris is too - or not too busy at least. Because I want to meet them all up again ): And well, just go out again haha. I wanna have a nice dinner with them, a movie and some random crapping/shopping >.<

Oh and I'm waiting for my Sephiroth figurine to arrive ;D

So anyway, that's it for now methinks.

i.

I can't be arsed to blog.

2.

I will most likely set up an online blogshop thingy. To sell the DIY stuff my mom and I have designed and made.
I command you to advertise for me.
And buy anything you like.

3.

I like eating Subway cookies.

4.

I am depressed.
Not because of the results that are going to be released this friday.

6.

I want to go out with Nessy, Rachel, and Maybo together for once.