something beautiful

Right, I really just HAD to post about today.

First,
Today, tonight,was the FIRST time
I ever went out with my sis, alone,
Like...
I mean we're not very close to begin with,
But throughout the years it got better,
And we finally went out together for once!

Well I mean sure, when we went on family trips (these few years), sis and I share a room and bonded. But today was just different.

On wed sis and I were talking over dinner,
Chatting about various things
And we decided we should just go out and chill out together,
So she intro-ed this bar place where live bands perform
Wala Wala, that was bar's name
But we had dinner first at Mykii,
And her friend joined us too,
So it was all good and cool
Nice guy he was,
Very tech, and metal driven haha.

Judging from how active I was in the conversations, I think I've improved over the years, improved from being shy and soft-spoken, that is.

Its the first time I've ever done something together with just my sister.
And it was very heart-warming.
So we talked, and laughed
And drank.
I have to treat my sister sometime soon. -_-;;

And the next thing to post about,
Mei linked me to this really wonderful and beautiful song on youtube
Love Story meets VIVA LA VIDA (Piano + Cello)
by Jon Schmidt
Seriously, just click on the link,
And wait for it to load.
I promise your time will NOT be wasted.
Its simply and really beautiful.

Anyway, I'm going to change the "Interests" section to a "Must-watch/hear section"
Because I have good tastes,
And I know you trust me (:

Mwahahahaha.

Monkey Majick

So I've been rejected by NUS.
Figures.
And I'm too lazy to appeal,
Because it'll probably take a long while too.

I'm going to NTU!!
I just hope I DON'T see any undesirable familiar faces.
If I do,
I hope I don't see them often.

Anyway, its pretty much settled.
I submitted an appeal to change programme,
But I doubt it'll get through.
So I'm looking forward to attending the
Biological Sciences course.

Heard from my sister that Uni life is kewl.

Tiffany wants an exciting life at the U.

Tiffany believes change is good.

Oh and did I mention,
MY SEPHIROTH FIGURINE HAS ARRIVED. Yay,
If you already know that,
Well,

Tiffany hits you with a large trunk so that you'd forget she told you before.

I'm looking for an appropriate place to display it.
Hmm.
I'm also contemplating on purchasing a nendroid of
Sebastian from Kuroshitsuji

Dad suggested I display my (pathetic) collection of figurines on top of my cupboard.
And I was like,
"WTF. No way. If the air-con ever leaks (it does), then my darlings are going to kena!"

>_>

So anyway, speaking of figurines,
I'm a collector of anime merchandise.
Well, specifically, anime TRINKETS.
I love it.
But they're guns, you know?
They fire a big hole in my pocket.

Tiffany is frightened of firepower.

I also like reading.
And books are guns too.
And mangas.

Lol.

Links to share today:

A new song I just found, its good:
Aishiteru
By Monkey Majick
Really good song!

Also, check out Neil Gaiman's novels/books/whatever.
They're good.
Examples include:
The Graveyard Book
Neverwhere
American Gods
Good Omens
and many more...

And a manga,
again
So what?
I like it, and this is MY blog.
07-GHOST
Its good, though the story is abit confusing at times.
And there are
BISHOUNENS.
The glasses type <33, the naughty-rebel type,
The totally cute-angsty type (the main character...),
Etc etc etc
Totally worth it.
I'm SO going to buy the artbook when it comes out.
There's an anime for it too, currently airing.

I love you Wasted Junks and Greens

I'm finally freeee~~!
Free from Subway.
Strangely, after I quit, majority of the workers quit too,
Because they freaked out when David requested for them to work the night shift.
Lulz.

[Ben] Lol, you should go back, and laugh.
[Me] ;D

Mary keeps pushing me to go back,
But I swear I won't.
Not until I tire of boredom,
Which is highly unlikely me thinks.
Well too bad for them,
If the pay was higher, and we had free meals on weekends and at night
Maybe that would be okay.

[David] I've been here for 9 years.

Tiffany thinks about why gayboss didn't learn his lesson when his workers keep quitting one after another
Tiffany believes that gayboss is probably a retard.

So yep.
I quit on tuesday, and for good reason,
Because on wed I wanna see my friendssssssss.
Its SO rare that I managed to gather ALL of us
So it was a must that I turn up.

I intro-ed them to this Jap-western restaurant-cafe at Bugis
Which served pretty good food.
And we took LOADS of pictures.
Like LOADS OF THEM.
Camwhores we are :\
And Maybo kept staring at herself
On the mirror, or a full-body length reflection.

You want pictures?
Please proceed to Maybo's blog,
Or check them out on facebook.
Kay?

Tiffany is a lazy ass.

Stuff to share today:

Check out
I love you Wasted Junks and Greens
By The Band Apart

No? Maybe this manga instead
Faster Than A Kiss
Because its sweet and I said so.

WTH? You don't like it? Not interested? Merh.

Tiffany hits you with a large trunk.

YAY!
I PWNZ j00.

sigh...

I'm just stressed out.
Again.

These few days/weeks at work have been almost hell.
Kat has left already, and I have to train a new one.
And for three days in a row, including today, I've been slightly reprimanded by David for losing money.
"Already 5 or 6 times you know, *sigh* I don't know what to do. It just keeps happening with you, the past few partners you've been doing with - maybo, kim, katrina and now shan shan. It happens everytime."
"Are you sure or not? You sure? You sure?"
"You just have to be more mature and responsible la."

He keeps suspecting that I stole the money since its been consecutive.
You guys know me, I don't steal money.
And I know I didn't.
But he keeps insisting/questioning ME.
I can't take it anymore.
I can't work in a place when it keeps happening again and again,
And I'm the one being questioned again and again and again like I was a criminal!
I can't take it working there anymore!...

But I don't know what's stopping me from quitting.
Its something like commitment to work I suppose..

The pay sucks,
We don't get extra for working at night and on weekends.
We don't even get ONE free meal.
And we have to bear with the gayboss.
Wth?
And I don't get to see my family,
I don't get to rest properly
Sleeping late, waking up late, eating very little/not eating at all..
Even my health suffers.
And my mind as well - because of all this stress.

It makes me feel really down and tired.
I have to break down so frequently because of all this.

I don't get it,
Alot of sucky things keep happening to me again and again these few months.

I got accepted into NTU, but I somewhat chose the wrong course.
I didn't realize there was a Chem+BioChem course until a few days ago.
And I'm absolutely NOT confident of scoring well in Biological Sciences -
And that's what worrying me.
I don't want to study something that I have to put alot of extra effort in - because its really tough.
I don't even know if I really love biology anymore.
And that's probably because there are so many things to study and remember that its almost impossible :\
I know I just really love chemistry.

Sigh I'm just..I don't know what to say.

update

Changed my blog layout.
Though the colors are a bit dull, I personally like it.
Did some adjustments to the fonts to make it look slightly gothic/dark.

I can't wait for June 19 to come...seriously...Because I want to quit already -_-;;

In love with a song called "MEMORY"
Younha - Memory (Regular Mix)
This is the original version of the song, the one that I initially fell in love with was the jap version (TV Size) from the anime Rideback. And I still like the japanese version ;P

Its a really sad song..And I can really relate to it.. That's why I love it. She sounds like she might break down and cry any moment when singing this song.
No matter how much time passes by...
I might have forgotten how it felt like,
And I might have gotten over you..
But...
"My heart still can't forget you."

I don't know why, but I always think of Ben when I watch/read romance anime/manga.
Recently I watched the Itazura na Kiss anime again, and it made me think
"Would Ben do this?"
"Do I still love Ben?"
"Can someone with unrequited feelings stay steadfast with his/her feelings for so long?"
"Is there really no one else for me, no matter how much I try to find someone else?"
"How is it supposed to feel like? I can't remember anymore.."
It makes me teary-eyed sigh.

Well, that's all for now.

I. am. fucking. stressed. out.
Like seriously.

1. I haven't received any notice from NUS yet. And its stressing me out to the point that I'm starting to get depressed over it - so much so that I broke down when I just woke up today ;\

2. I finally have today as my off. Yesterday on the bus home, I smsed Mei I can meet her today. Then I suddenly remembered, "SHIT. That NTU Seminar!!!" So I had to sms her, "Mei sorry hor, just remembered that I have to attend an NTU seminar. Will check when I get back home.

3. In the end, the registration date for the seminar was over (30 April). I went "WTF." So yeah, I AM meeting Mei today. But I'm like "Shit...I really need to attend that seminar." Mom even suggested I just go, but I told her, "I'm already going out! (Damnit)" And I was like, "HOW THE FUCK AM I GOING TO SLOT IN AN NTU SEMINAR INTO MY NOON SCHEDULE TODAY WHEN I'M ALREADY OCCUPIED?!?!?!"

4. JUST WHAT THE FUCK. Okay? Wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf. Ugh. I went to re-check the NTU Seminar info sent to my email, and figured "Hm...Maybe its not that important - seeing as the programme itself is pretty useless. I only need the -short- presentation and the tour." But well, the tour - I can actually just find my way around when I have the time. The curriculum - hmm...I really hope they'll have an orientation that includes description of the schedules and topics and the shit I'll be learning.

5. Kat is going to quit any time now. Like sunday or coming monday, maybe? And I'll have to teach another new one. The very thought of it just frustrates me to the point that I want to puke out my insides. Having to keep teaching and teaching and doing everything on my own and having to experience all that stress again - it just really exhausts me, mentally. I don't even know why I feel that having to teach a new person night-shift-stuff is so frustrating and stressful. I just know that it is. I have to adjust myself - and I keep having to do that again and again and again and again - so much so that I can't take it anymore. I'm not blaming Kat for quitting - I just feel..I don't know. Ugh... I want to rest from all of this - but I don't see it a valid-enough reason for me to quit and start rotting away at home ;\

6. I just realised that I"m really alone in all of this. Sure I have people to talk to, I have friends and family to comfort me - but that's all they can do. They can't help me. And I feel like a lone warrior standing up to a mountain of shit that keeps piling atop of one another. I just really feel alone - like the only person that can help me is myself. There's no one else who can solve my troubles.

7. Now that I've had my fill of pouring out, and crying, I suddenly feel a wave of exhaustion sweeping over me and pushing me to go sleep. But alas, I need to get a shower and go meet Mei. I just hope that I'll feel better by the time I'm on the train...I just hope that I won't think about all this so that I can have some good fun with Mei. If not, I'd feel miserable the whole day.

~

Well well look at this shit.
Its been a fucking month.
Jesu-..Shit no, can't use that.

Okay anyway. Yes I'm still working at Subway - night shift everyday. And SURPRISE SURPRISE!!!
I'm working with Katrina, who was in NTSS as well.
Its all good.
I hope Shan Shan will quickly learn top-ups so that Kat and I can rotate noon shifts. Not that I really want that but well hehe. I want to see my family more often.

I got NTU's acceptance letter the other day.
w00t.
When I looked at the unopened letter, I was like, "Shit. Wtf. I'm SO scared."
And I got good news.
But I'm still waiting for NUS' reply. They're taking SO long that its FREAKING. ME. OUT.
I'm happy for Nessy who got her NUS acceptance letter (:

So anyway that's my life right now.
The night shift and the normal day-to-day things that I do.
Nothing much to report.
Just that...
I want to have an ice cream date with Daphne and Mei soon!!!!!!
But they're both busy ):
Oh well.
Doesn't matter. I have PATIENCE!!!!

On a side note...At Subway, I have to say
_____ STINK!!!!!
Go figure it out yourself. And they're freaking dickasses, because they think they're all high class since they come from the highest caste.
WELL FUCK THAT SHIT. Do I give a damn fuck if you're from one of the most wealthiest families in ___? NO. So stop acting like you're superior than the people SERVING you at food outlets.
AND, ____ suck. Well, the young ones actually. They think they're all high and mighty. AND THEY MAKE SO MUCH NOISE. Fucking undisciplined dicks.
:\

So yeah.
About my personal life?
Well..Nothing much to report actually.
So thanks for reading, and have a nice day.
SPAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM~~~~~~~~~~