changi airport

so its 6:27am now, and I'm waiting to board Thai airways 2 hours later. so christmas was yesterday and I had a little feast at mom's aunt's ...though I had diarrhoea later lol.

I gotta say though it didnt really feel like christmas

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Will blog after exams =]

for you

hmm..apparently, I just wanted to blog about today.

so I had polymer chemistry test 2 this morn'; got a ride from dad - thank God for that or I'd have to wake up pretty early lol. I reckon I did better for this test than the first, though I'm quite sure most people will be getting 90++ for this test. I'll be happy if I get more than 80. x]

after the test I was like "PHEW. FINALLY!" because yes, I could *finally* plan my schedule for the rest of the day and the upcoming week. so I have a substantial amount of work to do. but....I stayed out at westmall with my family for the better of the afternoon lol. so its 5pm now - really late. so I changed my schedule for the rest of today to "Finish all due work today." Its an achievable goal right? Not too farfetched, heh.

so anyways at westmall it was relaxing. even though at the back of my mind I was a lil worried about relaxing too much, but I believed its a lil rest I deserve. (though I wasn't busy for the week. or more like..not as occupied as last time.) anyways, we had udders, and went watson's-shopping. I -love- doing watson's/guardian-shopping. There's like, an endless amount of stuff you could get from there because everything's in one place lol.

...and I got justin to fold me a crane haha..I wanted it as a keepsake of sorts, but I didn't tell him that of course lol - that'd be stalker-ish. and so the little crane he so meticulously folded (like the previous two aluminium and sample-paper cranes as well; gosh it even has a FOLDED BEAK!) is now sitting atop one of my drawers where its easy for me to look HAHA. no, I'm not stalking here. its not like I WANTED something to remind me of him, no, its not like that. its something different really.

so I already know that he's really not on my list of potentials, he really isn't - that part has really SUNK IN already heh. but I guess it doesn't hurt to be an otome ^^ I know he's not the right type, but I still like him nonetheless. I reckon my cheeks get red when I talk about him, I get a lil shy, I'm happy when I see him - the normal reactions really. its nothing much, and I'm not getting too carried away, nor too stupid to realize things. but I'm happy nonetheless. I have this like-hate thing when it comes to him. that really quiet-I-don't-bother attitude of his I really can't stand - I actually ASKED about it, and all he had to say about it was "Ya.". Thats it. Lol. Ah well. I'm crushing on a guy like that, lol. But it'll be over soon anyway, I know it will, because when you loose regular physical interactions with someone you like, the feeling will fade. its sad, but I know it'll happen. and I'm interested in whether it'll really be this way. the future is, afterall, unpredictable. (though I'm almost really sure nothing's gonna come out of crushing on him).

gosh I think this sounds really mushy. I think I'm gonna tone it down tomorrow when I read this tomorrow lol.

posted 27th november, 2010.

another two more times...

...and it'll be over, and I will probably never get another chance to actively interact with justin again. even with his email, its hard to actually chat him up. though maybe once in while it might work, but I can expect either a 3- or 2-alphabet word for replies, with extremely minimum elaboration. that's why I prefer the him in real life, though there's not ALOT of difference, but I can at least see his expressions.

so I'm really kinda sad about it, and I'm going to make the best chatting out of these last two sessions.

Hmm.

If I cry more than I feel really happy about a situation, is it a sign that reality wants me to accept, or am I thinking far too much about it?

lol

actually I think my facebook is better than my blog haha. Easier to post simple status updates, random shit, emo stuff, etc etc etc. but having a blog allows me to elaborate haha, which is better in another way

gorecki

HE HAS FACEFUCKINGBOOK.

I'm pretty pissed about finding out about that, because I really DID NOT WANT to know.

How I found out? See I needed a more effective way of contacting him (for school work purposes) so I asked, and he said email/online. Then I had the itchy hand to use the friends finder on facebook for fun, and saw he was there. And I clicked. And voila, pissed me.

And neither am I going to be the one doing the adding. No, never, until I'm on better terms with him, which, IMO, is never going to happen because he is probably THAT MUCH uninterested in being friends.

I can't believe I'm affected so much by someone like that. I don't know why either (this is my favourite sentence). No matter how much I try, I can't see him normally as just merely an acquaintence; I'm very conscious of his presence. And I'm just so fucking ridiculously affected that its fucking absurd.

I think I'm gonna loose it; I'm gonna loose this fight. I'm gonna give up on this whole thing sooner or later. Just three more sessions and we'll see how everything's gonna turn out.

Till then..I'm just gonna let things be, and not attempt to talk at all. I really can't take it when he's so unresponsive.

Btw, this blog is private. So if there's anyone from NTU reading my blog, kindly tag in the chatbox. Though i highly doubt there's anyone since i've kept the url to this blog private.

so..

These past two weeks..just some stuff happened, and during my time with you-know-who during a certain class today I was...just not talking at all, neither did he, so we were just doing the experiment and that was it. Some occasional random stuff, but nothing happened.
we left together for once lol. But the whole time I was being the quiet-cool me, not making any attempt at conversation, and neither did he. I cant really describe the situation today, but it ended on a very neutral note that I admit wasn't making me the least bit happy, but guess I just gotta accept it..

So thats the reason why I'm feeling kinda heartbroken.

justin. that's his name.

its tough liking a guy
who shows almost absolute ZERO interest in talking/chit-chatting.
who gives you just a nod without a smile if you see him around the campus.
who replies any sms with one-liners.

what's with him that he doesn't reply when I complimented him on his new hair? =\

even so, I find it hard to just stop liking him. he's tall, he looks pretty good to me, I really do like it when he smiles, jokes with me, and does silly stupid bo-liao things during lab class(we're lab partners). I was weighing some stuff at the sample area in the lab, and he came up to me, holding up an aluminium-foil folded CRANE. I was like, "...Wth? You really are THAT bored eh? LOL" then we went back to our seats, and he said "That poor bird needs a friend. *takes used weighing paper and folds another crane*" I had this -_- and XD LOL expression written all over my face and he was probably amused by how I found it so absurd.

lol and that joke with smells. (we were figuring out the odours of some samples). I won't say it here because some of you might find it gross. LOL BUT I COULDN'T STOP LAUGHING. We were guessing and trying hard to link what we were smelling, to something/anything. Then he looked at me and said, "Do you know what this really smells like?" so I asked, and he whispered something really softly, and I was like "Really? oO". And it was only THIRTY SECONDS LATER when I mingled with my other friends in the lab that I burst out laughing at the absurdity of what he said LOL. At first it wasn't funny, but the more I thought about it, the more absurd it was LOL. I JUST COULDN'T STOP LAUGHING xDDDD

When he saw me laughing like that I bet he was so amused by my reaction, that he himself started laughing too lol. That was the best smile coming from him for that day.. I can't forget that smile on his face at that instant. I just can't forget it, whenever I think back to that smells joke, I remember his smile instantly. Then I feel my cheeks getting red :\

at first, during the first few lab sessions, I felt really useless because HE KEPT DOING EVERYTHING OMG WTH. Okay well, not everything, but almost all of it. but recently I decided to just let myself be a little spoiled lol. but of course I do whatever I can whilst he's doing something else.

but outside of class he's just a tree log. what's up with that?

he's very difficult to talk to, because he just doesn't talk. all the waiting time for reactions in the lab, he doesn't chat. AT ALL.

outside of class, he's no gentleman. he doesn't smile at you, he prefers looking scary. BUT I SWEAR MY HEART SKIPS A BEAT WHEN I SEE HIM, regardless of whether he's smiling, or looking like a statue, and whether I'm pissed at him for being such a jerk-like person. But I won't lie. Though I'm not heads over heels for him, I can't help it if I get a doki doki moment. And don't be "woooooooo! shi wan likes him!" with me lol.

but he's just..no gentleman manners. but okay, like daphne said, maybe he's only nice to his girlfriend, God knows if he has one. Anyways, he doesn't greet you, doesn't ask about you, or anything.

okay, I get it that he isn't interested, but isn't it basic courtesy to greet someone you know? like WARMLY? I do that to him, he doesn't return the warm gesture. wth? that's just absurd. maybe not everyone greets, but honestly ugh lol.

I'm torn about how he's so jerk-like, and how I still find myself liking him.

maybe this'll fade, like the two previous guys. but this guy's been the furthest I've went, wtf is it with me starting to like someone like that? I must be out of my mind. there's no way in hell that I'm gonna lower my standards.
I'll see how things go, I'm pretty sure it'll be resolved soon enough. If not...well, we'll get to that later. but I admit, I like him. What a jerk though.

anyone got ideas how to handle liking someone like that? aside from ignoring hiim lol.

uh..

I swear I have ZERO chemistry with guys. Am I too friendly? Too kiddy-looking?

all I see

I think
my heart's beating fast,
cheeks turning red,
imagination running a lil wild,
daydreamin',
losing my concentration,

and all I see..is?

w00t!!!

I R BLOGGING ON MY PHONE. THIS IS WAY TOO GOOD. Its so much more convenient than blogging from the computer, I think. LOL. So I think you guys can expect more posts from now on! If any of you are even reading this blog still lol~

さくら満開

I keep thinking about how I really enjoy the schooling life, and how once I graduate everything's going to be over and I'll be back to square one, slowly climbing up the stairs of the working society. I wonder if you guys feel this way? another few more years, and we'll all become full-fledged adults.

on to something else,

I'm not going to reveal any details here, but honestly thinking about -it- distracts me alot. I literally have to force myself not to imagine anything and just concentrate on what's more important than -that-. though its a lil hard. I have to constantly tell myself not to imagine this or that, so that I don't get reminded of anything. But I wish for something better than this though ): strangely this always happens to me, when I try, things just don't turn out right. hmm..kinda disheartening, but I don't really know another way around it. its how I always approach things, or maybe I just keep meeting people who aren't on the same frequency as I am. that's why things don't work out..

Posted Oct 14th, 2010

wow.

so I haven't posted in almost one month lol. not like I wanted to abandon this blog, I just really haven't had the appropriate time to spend on blog-posting. so I'm really sorry about that.

anyways, the days are passing by quickly, and in the blink of an eye, sunday becomes friday. so I just finished the lab for today since the experiment assigned to me was relatively simple and didn't require the full 6 hours. yes, lab is 6 hours. no, I'm not complaining, because you really -do- need THAT amount of time to finish the experiment ;P And I enjoy it anyway. I love school and work; they keep me occupied all the time. and I'm not complaining much.

this semester I'm taking on one more module, although it totals up to only twenty academic units, but in actuality its 7 modules. 3 core modules, japanese 2, polymer chemistry, food chemistry, and accounting. I took on the challenge of 7 mods this time, and so far I guess its going alright. I'm not working nor giving tuition like most of you are right now (Daphne, May Bo, Jehanne etc). most of my time is spent in school studying. and I have this new policy, okay well its not VERY new, but I'm applying it only now.

its not how much time you put in, but how much you get done.

so even if I stay back in school for 2-3 hours, if I only managed to complete 1 or 2 tasks, then that's not productive enough. or actually may be it is, but I just don't feel that way. I have alot of things to do, revise, and catch up with that there's a need to finish 3-4 tasks in 3 hours lol, however impossible and crazy it may seem.

I've more or less settled into the semester life now, staying back and studying and stuff, fixing on which days I need to finish lab reports and tutorials etc. so I think everything's pretty much going quite smoothly now.

so! you may start wondering what's gonna happen to my social/private life. well I can safely say that its pretty much dead right now. although I -do- surf the net and stuff for 1-3 hours when I'm home, while doing some work haha. even though that's not productive either. I usually get too absorbed into watching some videos on youtube.

I can't wait to eat the waffles at TCC..! Must remind myself 23rd Nov is the last day heheheheh ;P

And oh gosh recess week is coming soon, and I'm not rejoicing much either, because the midterms are right after that. Though I -will- spare a day or two in the resting week to enjoy myself or something.

in any case, I found some new music, I hope you'll like them. Some of them Daphne have heard before, and stuff.

Lia - Disintegration
From the game Little Busters developed by Key, here's the opening song that was remixed in the adult version of the game: Rita - Little Busters! -Ecstasy Ver.-
IMMI - Sign of Love, one of my favourites.
And here's someone who has a very angelic and powerful voice; I really like her in that singing sense. Although this song might not do justice, but I like it nonetheless: HIMEKA - last regrets(cover)

and that's all for now, I'm left with 2.5 hours to get some work done before my next(and last, for the day) class.

ciao!!

Posted October 1, 2010

ack

I have a sore throat. Yes, it sucks. Probably because I ate too much of something over the weekends and didn't drink enough water because of it.

Anyways, this isn't a rant post, its a fangirling post.

So just yesterday I kind of dilly-dallyed in my studies and got distracted with this blog called "26 Hours" which is somewhat like White Butterfly, both of which are run by female otaku. So there were 2 posts on 26 Hours about Otome Road in Ikebukuro, and a special insights post about this butler cafe Swallowtail located in the area. There was also a youtube video about it w00t, it was pretty addictive and got me all REALLY excited about being able to visit one in the not-so-distant future -haRT- Apparently you need to do reservations in advance, and in Swallowtail the butlers are really real stewards who've gone through one month's worth of training. They treat you like princesses there (which IMO is kinda restricting but whatever), I also heard they accompany you to the washroom and wait for you outside! Holy shit man xD I'm absolutely gonna visit one of these cafe's in the near future!! <33 I might be alone since well..I don't think other people are really interested in it..

(btw, it really sucks to have a stomach ache while typing this out in school on my laptop and I'm alone. So I'll have to like pack EVERYTHING in order for me to go to the toilet :\ oh and, I also really hate it when my lappy is laggy. DDD: < oh and, it sucks when you have a sore throat and how painful it is to swallow. I NEED ANTIBIOTICS!!!)

Oh right, there's a bazaar at school now! *needs to remember to bring money tomorrow* ahahaha xD hmm what else...I don't really know because I'm far too distracted right now due to the sore throat and stomach ache, which I didn't expect :|||||||

-.-;

Posted September 5th, 2010

picture blog post iv

and so this is the last post of the series. if there's anymore coming up, its not now haha. maybe the Gothic Lolita Ensemble mag I got? just a thought heh, I'm not really sure. I hope you guys enjoyed the four-part series. and now, on to kuroshitsuji!

I re-took pictures so there's more this time round. as usual, all pictures linked.

so this is the cover art of the book. the words are supposed to be in gold, but since this is a scanned picture, the reflection doesn't bode well heh. I tried scanning instead, but its really difficult, so I gave up, and this is the only page I scanned lol. here's a closer look at the detail and art of the words(with the gold color):

--- simply beautiful detail <3

And a closer look at some detail here.

This next picture was taken specially for MAY BO. Happy dude? xD You told me once how you preferred this guy over Sebastian(the butler). And so here's some fan service for you, along with two close up shots of his beautiful face and his oh-so-delicious lips grabbing that envelope:



And here's a decent shot of Sebastian -HART- biting off his glove to reveal oh-so-smexy fingers:



Next up: Some non-yaoi pictures of Ciel+Sebastian, along with some minor detail:



Sebastian's profile page:



Here's a look at his sexy face.

Ciel's profile page:



A snapshot of Madam Red's, Grell's and Ashe's profile pages respectively:



Snapshots of Sebastian's and Elizabeth's character sketches respectively:



And the back cover of the whole artbook:



And that's all folks! I sincerely apologize if the images weren't very HQ for all these pictures, including the ones posted in previous picture blog posts. I could've done better but well this is just a little showcase and its not like you guys will be using the pictures to do anything major anyway. You can use them if you want, just give proper credit. I didn't scan these for one simple reason, which I won't reveal here.

So anyways, I hope you enjoyed this short journey of smexy+beautiful+awesome pictures~~ CIAO!

Posted September 4th, 2010

and school officially starts

and so school starts this week. and my schedule is alright, I'm kind of testing something, like, take one more module and see if I can take the load. I don't exactly know why I'm taking this one more mod, but one of the major reasons would probabaly be how my some of my friends are taking it too, so I was thinking I could take it with them. and because of this I had to shift my japanese lessons to evening periods, which is really totally fine by me, its just I don't know if I can take the load. so I'm gonna try out this schedule next week, and if it doesn't work out, I guess I just switch back to my original plan. but here's the problem: I have zero idea if there will still be vacancies for my initially-desired japanese lessons slot.its like a challenge of sorts, to myself. so that's the plan. every single semester is important to me, for alot of reaons which I won't state here for fear it might ruin my determination heheheh. I have this thing about saying out loud my personal academic decisions.

anyways, that's that, and on to other stuff. so its 5 plus right now, I'm at the clubhouse doing this blogpost (since I know I probably will dilly-dally at home lulz), enjoying the aircon while its blazing hot outside. mom says the early afternoon sun is one of the worst for skin. hmm. I'm probably gonna be occupied for the whole evening, I really PRAY that I'll not laze around lol.

so as you all know by now, I'm sporting a new hairstyle and contacts too, which alot of people go "OMG. I COULDN'T RECOGNIZE YOU!" at in school xDDD I take it as a compliment >.> so yeah, I really do look really different. but no way in hell does it change my personality ;p so don't you guys worry, I'm still your sarcastic little devil cum naive angel <3

first week of school is always the most relaxed since there aren't any tutorials or lab sessions. and you can say I'm satisfied with the lectures that I've attended so far; I'm learning alot of things from my courses. I'm kinda looking forward to improving my japanese ;p hopefully it'll be alright. basically I'm looking forward to all of my classes, since I'm learning new (academic) things.

oh and the last picture blog post will be up anytime soon. I hope I'll be able to split my time well between school and life.
actually right now I'm just crapping out anything I can for no reason. guess I might just as welll log off now.

so I'll see you guys again (;

on a side note, I wonder how many of you lurk around my blog. heheh. but it doesn't really stop me from blogging since I really don't intend to shut this blog down. I haven't started on the new layout yet, gotta find the right time to draw the stuff out on my drawing block heheh.

posted August 31, 2010

これわただのランダムのポーストだよ～

as the title says, this is just a random post xD of picture spam. just stuff.

EDIT: I cut my hair the other day and I have bangs now, so its different from the pictures now >_<

FIRSTLY, LO' AND BEHOLD, BECKA (and me)!!!!



I finally went out with Kay and WL for once during this WHOLE break LOL. And so here are the little snapshots of our lunch at Chef Daniel's Kitchen that I took with my pathetic 2MP phone camera HAHA.



Soup of the day with herb er...bread. Corn soup. It was pretty alright. But one thing I didn't like was how they served our main course while we were still having our appetizer. That's poor judgement. And we thought the cafe was kind of the reputable type. Ah well. And the orange juice was horrid. Its like just concentrate added with water. No freshness; artificial D: < Even the orange juice I make tastes a thousand times better -.-;



And that was what I had. Which was pretty nice. Minced chicken burger. I'm glad I changed my mind and tried this instead haha >_>;



WL's. She said it was too sour and not filling enough >w< i.e. it had no meat -.-



Kay's. She said it was alright. Though she noted the crinkle fries were bad. I didn't xD She seems to be pretty particular about fries o.o



Dessert!!! It was pretty delicious, like peach yoghurt cheese cake <3 We couldn't figuer out exactly what it was, so I just said that HAHA. But it was really nice.

And next I tried on this green dress while with Daphne at FEP that day~
1 2

Never knew I really did look alright in green. Mom always said it. And also the halter neck portion. So yeah I'm like on the lookout these things now.

picture blog post iii

so what did I say I would do for this post? oh right, Kobato. and LOVELESS~ so here ya go~

note: ALL pictures are LINKED to said better quality images, unless otherwise stated.



so that's the front cover of these two beyond wonderful artbooks. oh off the topic, I just finished watching Hakuouki's anime's first season (next coming in october, thanks to Kay for the news, can't wait!), and I'm like "...I want an artbook for this." HAHAHA. I saw it the other day before I watched it but didn't get it since I really don't know what's really in it, and its still the same now. Its 62$ :\ Really expensive ): I think they(kinokuniya) have two kinds, can't remember what the other one was like hmm...

ANYWAYS! On to Kobato.!



This is the full cover page. Kobato-chan is SO CUTE <3



And this is one side of the pull-out poster which, of course, I did not pull out HAHA. It'd be such a waste. And its not like I have enough space to display it anyway xD Sadly.. >.>;



So these are the character pages of the three main characters, with pretty screenshots -haRt- Kobato-chan is obviously the really cute girl in the dress. She's a clumsy but pure-hearted warm girl who's always so cheery she'll brighten your day once you set eyes upon her. Isn't that great? Someone who's always cheerful~ I'm glad I have people like her in my life xD And the tall guy in the glasses is Fujimoto Kiyokazu-kun. The love-interest obviously. Gosh I have a really soft spot for this guy, he's really cute, and his friend Doumoto-kun, whose picture I didn't take, is also an ikemen(beautiful man, literally). Doumoto-kun is a REALLY nice guy, I wouldn't mind having him for a boyfriend xD He has more of a role in the anime, unlike the manga, which is still ongoing. So basically the anime has its own original ending (which wasn't THAT bad). And the blue stuffed animal is the bad-mouthed Ioryogi-san! He's like the really strict guard of Kobato-chan, but he's good a heart. Gosh in the latest chapters of the manga, some of his connections with Kobato-chan is revealed, and I gotta say its heartbreaking to an extent. The poor guy ;_;

And now, on to the LOVELESS shots~



And these are the full front and back covers of the book. Love the character designs -haRt-



And these are just examples of the character pages. The first is Ritsuka-kun, the main protagonist, and Soubi-kun is also the other protagonist but I didn't take a photo of his character page. He's in the character sketches (third picture). And the girls there are Kouya and Yamato, yes, they're a couple. And they're the only yuri couple whom I don't disapprove of. I love this couple xD



And that is the last picture for this post! And again, here's a teaser for the final blog post that'll be on Kuroshitsuji:



Posted August 26, 2010