stars, plasma, ions, chemistry..

now this is unexpected,
for me to do a new post the next day

in any case,
I was reading up on a game(n wikipedia) which had loads of relations to history,
like the Third Crusade, Damascus, Templar Knights, etc
so yes, I did loads of right-click-open-in-new-tab

there was this page about Doomsday
coming December 12, 2012
the end of the world,
related articles include astronomical significance,
historical countdown etc
which led me to right-click again
so I could read about astronomy-related things

back to the game, which takes place in Jerusalem and Damascus,
I saw some pictures of cities in Syria.
made me think, "I should go there some time."
there are alot of historically important locations there,
and the very thought of being able to stand in front of these sites, as well as seeing it, makes me think, "Wow...Something actually happened here so long ago. And to think the building is still standing. Very, very intriguing and wonderous."

It'd be spectacular if we could -feel- the great weight of importance of places in history
Don't you think so?
Which brings me to my next discussion,
even though it is totally unrelated to history

here we are, in the present.
and so many events happened so long ago,
things we never witnessed,
great people whom we've never set our eyes upon,
etc etc etc

and when I started reading the tabs about Aatronomy
it made me think about the whole universe.
the planets, the orbits, the sun, the Milk Way,
and how many light years it takes for ANYTHING to happen
It suddenly dawned upon me how insignificant we are, as individuals,
in this Great Flow of the universe.
As humans, we are only a very, very miniscule part of everything
And yet, when you think about YOUR own existence as a person in society,
everything each of us have experienced is, in some way, important to ourselves.
this sounds confusing,
but my point is,

our existence itself is miniscule compared to that of the universe
but because we are living organisms, and perhaps because we are human,
our intelligence and consciousness enables us to realize/believe in our own individual importance in society.
it makes us humans conceited and self-centered, doesn't it? just because we are able to think.

but I think it is more important to always remember,
that we are in fact,
very insignificant individuals as compared to the great flow of events in the whole universe

our lives are so short,
a mere hundred years as a maximum for each human.
what is a hundred years compared to ten light years?

all in all, the bottom line is, I repeat,
we are only a small part of a Great Flow in the universe.

anyway, on to my next topic,
I read about suns and stars as well,
wow, there's just alot of information on these things
my head could blow, but its really interesting
like magnetic fields, solar flares, etc etc etc.
anyway, I read this -
A star is a massive, luminous ball of plasma that is held together by gravity.

plasma...what's plasma? *right-click*
yeah, and I read and read and read,
and I realized,
SHIT I NEED TO REFRESH MY CHEMISTRY.
and yes, I'm definitely going to have to do that soon -_-;;

posted July 27th

theme park galore!

so here's a little update on what I've been up to -

managed to catch the latest HP film recently
'twas not so bad.
I mean,
if you're looking for alot of action, a full story,
then you're better off not watching it.
personally,
the half-blood prince felt more like
an intermission and introduction of sorts to me.

I'd like to think
that it had a good development
of relationships between our
beloved characters,
some dark story beneath the cheerful scenes

however,
the transition between the
dark elements and the brighter side of things
was done totally half-assed
also,
the relationships weren't flashed out enough
so it was difficult
to get into the romance
it was as if the movie expected us
to already be informed of the backstory of each relationship shown.

then there's the part about
the half-blood prince's potions book
there was just not enough relation to it
sure, we're being shown scenes
of Harry never letting go of the book
at almost all-times,
but still,
there wasn't enough detail

I don't know if the potions book
was of any great importance,
and even though its supposed to be
"through the book, Harry gets closer to Professor Slughorn (sp)"
There just wasn't enough detail to the book, nor to
Harry's 'mission'

as a non-reader,
I'm left being quite disappointed in these aspects
everything basically felt
like an introduction to the book.
its not good enough to
be representative of the book.

with that said,
I'm not unhappy with the movie.
Afterall,
I wasn't expecting much
(not because of the reviews)
I just wanted to watch it,
that's all.

anyway,
here's something extra,
HARRY POTTER THEME PARK
Its to open next year I heard,
In America.
I'm gonna go there when I have the money, I swear lol.

oh and,
having a blob of custard on your cheek
is embarassing.
*chewy junior*

posted July 26th

le butterfly

That will be the name for my upcoming blogshop.
le is french for the

I'm not about to create a page for the shop yet,
since I haven't photoshopped the photos I just took.
And plus,
I ALSO haven't finished taking photos.
But things are looking good I suppose.

So look out for more updates and whatnot.

cheers.

.."friends"

I don't know where to start.

I suppose I'll say this first,

Its such a pain in the ass to be thoughtful when others don't spare a single shitty thought for you since they're so busy.

I always do the reaching out to this clique of mine,
I ask, "How are you?"
I initiate the conversation.
And what do I get in return?
Nothing.
They hardly ever do the same for me.

I've always wanted to keep them close, just because they were/are really good friends of mine. And we've went through thick and thin together back in high school. That's why I always held out my hand first, because I cared for them.

Regretfully,
my efforts were very often, if not always,
a one-sided concern.

But recently..These days..
I've come to think that..
They don't really care about "old" friends anymore,
Since they have new lives and new friends.
Like there's not a single need
for them to contact old friends.
Like they didn't really care at all.

"I always feel bad for my sec school friends, because I really treasure them, but I'm always lazy/don't ever do anything much for them."

What a load of bull.

"I dunno, just one good friend's enough, I suppose?"

If someone you cared for said those things to you,
And mind you, the good friend does NOT refer to you,
How would you feel?

I'm ..thoroughly disappointed.
I'm just seriously so hurt I could cry.
I'm not jealous of that "good friend",
I'm just so hurt that someone I showed care and concern for,
could actually say something like that to me.

I'm not boosting about myself here,
Neither am I ranting about how I'm not anyone's "good friend" anymore,
Nor am I being a petty little prick here.
I just wish those friends of mine could return the efforts.

I feel like I never want to meet up these people again.
Hell, I don't even want to organize any gatherings anymore.
I'm thinking something along the lines of,
"I feel like I want to cut all active ties with them, and just remain a dormant friend." - As if they're strangers to me now.

I feel like I should just forget about these old friends and make new ones when I enter the university.
In the past, I would've rebuked the former idea, but now..I see it as the only solution to ease whatever pain I'm feeling now - because these friends of mine are doing the exact same thing to me. Whether they're aware of it or not - I am NOT going to bother about it.

Why should I care for them anymore?
I used to be able to love my friends, and when I could it made me very happy. And they felt the same too.

Now...
Now I just find it an impossible feat for me to accomplish.
I find it very, very difficult to feel love for my friends,
I find it hard to spare a thought of concern for them.
Not now, not anymore.
Someone suggested that its because
I'm tired of doing that all the time,
Especially when others don't do the same.

And when I ponder over these words,
I realize that they're probably true.

All this make me feel like..
Like I should start doing something about myself and my life,
Since I've been doing quite alot of reflection about many things,
Starting from this point onwards,
I shall try my best to love those who still love me.

Don't you even DARE say that I'm turning my heart into stone.
You DO NOT have the right to say that.
Not to someone who tried to reach out to you,
But yet you entirely so-called FORGOT to hold out yours as well.

As of now..
There are probably only around five people to whom this post is not addressed to.

To Adeline's Husband, please don't make a joke out of this post. It'd be more than rude if you did.

16 July 2009
Posted 11pm.

totally. fucking. badass.

10th July, 1:45am

uh, here's a short update.
just came back from a local gig @ Wala Wala.
Great night, seriously.
My second time there,
With my sis again, and with her friends.
These people are great company. Loved it.
And wtf, the long-awaited return of the female vocalist of the band,
My first time hearing her today,
And dude she can FUCKING GROWL.
TOTALLY BADASS.
And she's lovely.

I loved tonight.

Hey, I know its been almost a month since my last post.
And there are loads of things that happened, and I'm honestly too lazy to type everything out, so I'm just going to recite the events.

Earliest event was the Transformers movie date with XY, Daphne, XY's church buddies, XY's poly buddies (Jia Qing and gang). Before I met up with them I checked out PoMo's TCC. Twas pretty fine. Daphne joined me later.

Next up..Oh right, my family went to Johor for a simple and short one-day tour around, along with my mom's colleagues.
Delicious fishball noodles, albeit pretty expensive
(tourist spots suck :\ fucking money leechers),
batik painting
(which each of us were entitled to, and bring back home as a souvenier. I chose a pre-designed butterfly to paint),
durian farm stop
(oh gosh this was the highlight. great durian - even if I'm not a lover of it, I do eat it - and rambutans that we can pick from the trees and eat without getting scolded - they tasted heavenly).
Then it was just plain shopping at a local huge mall. Anything from this point onwards needs no explanation from me. But one thing I'll say is that its no different than shopping in Singapore - and its a bad thing because everything's the same. My family ended up hanging out at their local Watsons store lulz :\
Like, of ALL places in the mall, WATSONS. HAHA~
Then dinner was at this seafood village open-air restaurant. Satisfactory food (which is a compliment). And the open-air factor was good.
Since it was 4th of July, we spotted a fireworks display at a naval base not far from the restaurant. Pretty enjoyable stuff since there was a decent breeze, we were at a seaside as well - so the scenery was pretty good.

So yeah, that's all. I can't remember anything else.
And even if I did, the fact that I didn't blog it means it isn't all that significant, or I just don't want to type it out. Simple as that.

Anyways,
I CAN'T WAIT TO GO TO KINOKUNIYA AGAIN!!!! I can't remember when's the last time I was there. I really, really want to go check out whether there're any new releases.

And also,
I WANNA WATCH HARRY POTTER WHEN IT COMES OUT. FUCK, who wants to come with me? Or rather, who's INTERESTED in watching it with me?

-edit-
I'm glad I went to Wala Wala "today", because I wasn't feeling really good the day before, so the gig made me happier and more relaxed. Thank God for that.