boo.

みんなさんごめんね, for the lack of updates x3!!
(Minna-san, gomen ne,)

I've actually been pretty occupied with school lately. Loads to read up on, loads of stuff to practice. But fret not!

HAIL MY ONE WEEK TERM BREAK. EVEN THOUGH I'LL BE BUSY TOO. AHAHAHA!

Hmm..not much to say here really..Just wanted to tell you guys that I R NAWT DEAD!
I might post one or two pictures up soon when I can get off my lazy arse and connect my camera to the comp and do single-photo-editing. Sure it doesn't take alot of work, BUT ITS SO MUCH TROUBLE! Okay well, not SO much, but yeah, you get the idea right?

Oh and, my next layout might be "Last Regrets" from "Kanon" or something totally original. Graphics will be DIY-ed yay.

Grats to Jyan for officially ending her exams. Grats to Jo too.

Gawd I can't wait to go out for once next week xD

Anyways, I'll be signing off now. まったね!! (Matta ne!)

On a side note, learning japanese is awesome. Speaking in somewhat fluent japanese is awesome. Writing in japanese is awesome.

とってもうるしかったです!!!!

this post goes out especially to daphne, xin ying, claris and maybo, for making February 10, 2010 a very, very, very special, and overly joyful day (:

thank you so much guys, really.

as of now, I haven't opened ANY Of the presents yet ;D
I want to wait till the 14th instead =DD

to daphne:
thank you a thousand, thousand times for making wednesday so memorable. I was really really touched when xin ying and claris was there with us for dinner. Its the same as last year isn't it? I never knew they were there XD!! Thank you so much, for planning out all this. All the effort, all the smsing, all the running about, all the reservations. If it wasn't for you, none of this would have happened. Having xin ying and claris there at dinner made it all the more merrier and enjoyable too. And the manicure was heavenly!!!! Let's hope this year I'll be able to do the same for you >_< Let's go for pedicure on your bday kay? My treat this time xD Words just can't express how grateful I am for all of this happening to me this year. Its like a chock full of sweetness and overflowing chocolate at the same time xD

to maybo:
thank you so much for giving me a present. thank you so so much!!
enjoy your CNY and valentine's, okay? ^^

to xin ying and claris:
thank you girls, for taking time off your busy schedules to spend the evening with me today. you guys added your own flavors to the whole dish that was to be my birthday surprise (: I was really happy, I really was. And I still am ;)) Just being there with me to do a pre-celebration was enough to make me happy. I was really touched that you guys were there. Thank you so so much! (:

6th February

a mysterious melancholy fills my being this night. it makes my heart heavy, and renders my eyes to be filled with a sorrow that I cannot fathom. I am strangely saddened...but I cannot seem to find the reason why...

for thought.

people are singing too many songs about love when there's not much of it to go round the world at all. it is a sick place, and we're adding loads of shit and rubbish to the already shitty world. the world is a place worse than before, people and society keep pulling their bullshit on you.

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she's giving off vibes that say "I'm a flirt.", and she doesn't realize it. wait till she gets duped and banged. then she'll watch her step. we can't do anything for her if she isn't prepared to accept our harsh opinions, or maybe she's just too much of a hypocrite? she thinks she isn't doing anything wrong, which is what we all do more often than not. we reflect, but does she?

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when you think there's a feeling there, it slips through your grasp before you can hold it tightly to your chest. why am I afraid of being immersed in these feelings? is it because I'm actually not really serious about it? that's hard to accept..

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why am I like this when its about him? gosh, I really need to be more relaxed and understanding and expect less if I'm ever going to stay sane. its always the same - get frustrated -> calm down -> everything fades away -> repeat.

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sometimes we just need people to state the ever-obvious for us; we're just too unwilling to accept the harsh truth on our own. if people state it for us, you usually get it. its always there, dormant, waiting for you to accept it and move on.

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you're free to drown yourself in depression and sorrow, just don't over do it. stop feeling miserable for yourself if you're gonna say bullshit like "there's no such thing as a brighter side in my life.". you need to snap yourself back, even if you have to make harsh decisions. aren't your friends sticking by you? you're losing focus on the simpler things in life. having real love isn't the only thing in the world, you know. so don't pull your bullshit on us and say you can't take it anymore. it'll hurt for a while, but it'll pass, eventually. it always does.

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just so you guys'd know, I'm not actually feeling terribly sarcastic right now. its just stuff I want to put down (:

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last but not least, may God extend His comforting hand over the grieving family. my condolences are with you..

Posted February 4th, 2010