massive post

that I accumulated throughout the exam period in notepad.
*copies and pastes*

--------------------------April 20---------------------------

...Had four periods of hiccups yesterday. :\\

And today my mouse keeps dropping onto the floor :\\
And also today, my muscles and bones feel like they're gonna die :\\

Is it okay to still think about your past love even now?
Is it okay to still drop tears when you think about it?
(Yeah, this is a question.)

I think...To love someone is really a choice, a decision..
I'm beginning to slowly accept that notion, and that waiting for the right person just isn't going to accomplish anything. I don't know if you girls(or any guy who reads my blog as well LOL), approach love and relationships like I do now, but this is a conclusion I've come to after years and after talking about it with various people. You can like someone, but..its different. I don't exactly know how to put this into words, but having someone to like, and choosing someone, are two completely different things. Sometimes when you've waited for so long you feel like giving up already, you end up taking the guy who's "most available".
Not to sound horrible, but sometimes its true. When I think about myself doing something like that, the ultimate question that perks me is "Would it be possible to grow to love that person?" even if in the beginning there wasn't anything.

Ughhhh, after that hiccup fit yesterday, I feel like my upper body's breaking apart :\

--------------------------April 22---------------------------

imagine listening to In Flames when you've just got home burnt out from exam+revision at school the whole day till 9pm. its awesome shit. a wave of 10000% metal song-induced drowsiness will overwhelm you, and you'd feel like "shit..." *faints*

Oh right, my glasses almost died on me today. well it did, but MOMMY FIXED IT BACK FOR ME. THANK YOU MOM. I LOVE YOU. to think my nightmare would come true :\
see I was having a nightmare about being really late for the exam today, and yeah.
well I wasn't the least bit late, but I could've reached earlier. the reason in the dream and the reason IRL are different though. LULZ.

--------------------------April 23---------------------------

OMG. 12:30am. BAT. IN. THE. HOUSE. *FREAKING FASCINATED* SO CUTEE! Wanted to take a photo but couldn't, too dark. And no, I don't use flash on bats.
Awwww, it was trying to find its way out via sensing air flows, says my sis when
she came back not long after the bat flew in. Sis is so smart o.o

Side note, I think guys on facebook who have an all-female friends list are P.A.T.H.E.T.I.C. Yes, you heard me right, shitty guys. :\

On another side side note, I feel like I've just sniffed in thousands of bat-pollen lol xD


--------------------------April 27---------------------------

....there was an unknown bug FLYING AND BZZZING around my room throughout the WHOLE night, that I didn't really get a good sleep :\ Every once in a while, I'd hear "bzzzz. bam! bam! bzzz!!!" ugh, and I was DEAD tired. So yes, whenever I woke up to
that, I fell asleep a few seconds later. But WTF? STOP BZZING. I WANT TO SLEEP OKAY?!?!?!
Then right now I've unconvered the bug's identity: it's some kind of moth. WTF?

Posted April 28th, 2010

KATAKANA NAMES

Another just-for-fun post. Here are some katakana names derived from your original names~~ Enjoy!

Daphne - デフニ - De-fu-ni
Mine - チフニ - Chi-fu-ni
KayLynn - ケイリン - Ke-i-ri-n

May Bo - メイボ - me-i-bo
Jehanne - ジェイヤェン - je-i-ye-n
Jody - ジョディ - Jo-di
Cindy - セィンディ - See-n-di
Hui Ying - ホゥワェイン - Hu-ue-i-n


Note: These are not 100% accurate alright? xD Though Maybo's and Jody's should be just nice.

Note 2: Katakana is a language system used by the Japanese to write non-japanese words based on the original words' syllabus/articulation/whatever.

Note 3: I haven't/can't figure out which names need the long dash to prolong the sound so..forgive me! Su Min might know? Hmm.

just.

I'm feeling damn "seh" right now. Like..blur blur. Had a stomachache this morning, but there was Japanese listening test today, so I *had* go to school. Didn't eat lunch, didn't have any appetite. Ugh....I'm just basically feeling physically unwell right now. And because I didn't really eat anything I'm feeling like jelly heheh -_-;

Just a short post actually, I didn't intend to blog but yeah?

On a side note, the test was...well, okay AT LEAST. But there was this ONE question, the short passage had alot of dollars and cents and yen prices for just two items. And the question was, "What did the person buy?" and I'm like, "...Shit, I didn't take note of the prices. DAMN." ):

Posted April 13, 2010

hmm.

Happy April Fool's and Good Friday to you all, though its late.

Celebrated Daphne's birthday on Good Friday x) Treated her, and myself, to a nice foot massage x) Next time, we should do a spa. A simple one, perhaps? Or onsen at Japan =DD

Anyways, just a few things..
Sorry the picture post isn't up yet, it probably won't be up anytime soon, I don't know when I'll be like literally free again. I will be when I've done enough revision for a day or something, but then I'd want to use the time to watch my anime instead of taking photos =X Although, I *am* excited about the picture post, so look forward to it~

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You know, everytime there's a public holiday that extends my weekend, I tend to loose track of time and play for a day, thinking that I "have nothing on next week". Meaning, I don't have any assignments due. But alas, I always do, like reading notes and preparing for tutorials and stuff. I played for a full two days without doing any revision during this extended minibreak (its in conjunction with e-learning week. so no school on thursday either mwahahahaha.), the only reading up I did was to revise fully on the Japanese lessons taught so far. That's all. And as I'm typing this out, I'm also reviewing the e-lectures uploaded, i.e. E-LEARNING WEEK. So its E-LEARNING. The plan is to review every module's e-lecture today. So sunday I can do other things.

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I've been feeling..disappointed in myself lately. The past two weeks were a rush of disappointment in some way. Academic disappointment..Right now I'm not gonna think about it anymore, and the "pass-fail" thing salvages everything, so there's nothing much to worry about. Its a confirmed pass even if I don't look at any results. But you guys know me...I become beyond devastated when I mess up things. Sorry I'm not putting any details here, so just take this as it is. Its just one module btw, so its not that bad (:

And emotional disappointment - in myself. I feel like I really need to change myself back to how I was "then". Maybe daily school life changed my character, I don't know. But I found myself doubting this really close friend of mine, like as if I should just break it off since it feels as if nothing's working out.

(I'm not going to post details here, nor anywhere, because this is far too personal. Its a very sensitive issue to me, so no one knows about it.)

I feel like I really need to start from *that point* onwards, and be understanding, and never doubt that person nor his/her intentions. Because I know that person would never think ill of me, nor will that person do things that would hurt me. Just that recently, because of a certain message that I interpreted the wrong way, I start to question whether that person finds my habits a nuisance..So I'm going to try my hardest and not give trouble to that person anymore. I...I don't know the word for this, but I want to become humble again, in a sense. I want to become thoughtful for that person, and I want to beyond 100% believe in that person. I find it hard to not be judgemental of anyone, is that okay? Its really hard to describe my feelings on this matter...

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Kobato. episodes 23 and 24 were such tearjerkers, I bawled my eyes out ;_; Twas soooooooo sad and heartbreaking, and Fujimoto-san is SUCH a TSUNDERE! But at least the ending was satisfactory. So these two episodes were a BOMB! It salvaged the entire filler-type-episodic series. The manga is still ongoing though, and I am looking forward to the next chapter~ Kobato is SUCH a cutie heheh.

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Nodame Cantabile: Finale's last two episodes were FAR too rushed. Sad ): Those two episodes destroyed it for me. They had a nice build up from episode 1 right till 9, then 10 and 11 just blew it :\ Ah well.

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I think that should be all, for now. I can't remember what else I wanted to blog about, so that's it. Ciao~~~

Posted April 3rd, 2010