a great week.
had an even greater night out with a couple of old friends today.
took loads of pictures
of them actually, lol
photos will be put up at a later date on FB
because I'm resizing, auto-colour-correcting (some), and also trying to salvage all those red-eye photos >.<
they might look a tad bit weird, but it'd be the best I can do
so don't blame me =3
just got my lappy last saturday,
its working great
and its light
and its really handy, like really handy.
got some stuff for daphne too.
this pair of earrings from the NTU bazaar
a macaron key-chain
and some other stuff
and I made more friends,
and so school is getting alot, alot better
but it seems that I'm still busy here and there
so yeah..
oh well.
I haven't caught up with some of the animes I'm following this season,
for two weeks already xD
and some new chapters of certain manga I'm reading
ah well
its okay
oh and we also went to jo's new house at JP
great ambience at the pool at night
love it, honest.
I'd want my house to be like that,
but alot more spacious please xD
the overall design and concept is pretty impressive,
and visually more stunning than Parc Oasis
but I still like my estate (:
because its SPACIOUS!
ahahahahaha~~
oh and I also got me a Stitch puzzle to do with my family ;D
that's all for now (:
oh and the blogshop,
it'll take me some time to do a proper post
I'm really sorry about that.
once again,
pictures to be up soon. (:
bon voyage to jehanne!
take care my dearrrrr.
sorry I couldn't get you that puzzle >_<
Friday, August 28, 2009
Saturday, August 22, 2009
an ending theme..
school is going good..
but there are alot of things to do
rather, I'm doing more work than others are, I think.
but that's that..
and I have almost no life now.
I made friends here and there, so its getting alot better,
but I don't have the time to properly relax and do the things I want..
save for my daily routine stuff..
and I'm very lonely, so lonely to the point that I often break down,..
and it started ever since the U did.
I don't know why..
Everything is just so..I don't know.
All of my good friends (daphne, xy, maybo, jehanne, etc)
they're all busy with their school work,
and so am I,
its not that its difficult to meet up..
but somehow..I'm just really lonely..
my nights are filled with a very still air,
I don't even like sleeping in my room anymore.
well its more like..
I don't even want to sleep alone.
I'm in a house, with my parents,
and yet I'm alone in my room,
and there is no one but me.
its just..beyond lonely, I don't know how to describe it..
the days are just so different from what they used to be..
back in the old days we would all hang out together,
and even if we didn't, my days were still always happy
but since I entered the U..
I feel even more lonely than ever..
I don't wish for a boyfriend just so he can fill this gap,
or anything of the sort.
you don't go making boyfriends like that. its wrong.
I just..I just really wished the days went back to how they were before the U started..Where everything was my-pace-styled,
where I would have happy and comfortable company like when I was at work.
but now..
say if I met up with my old gang,
or just with daphne,
I would feel that everything's changed..like literally..
I can't get back into the I-have-good-friends mood anymore..
I only know that the people who are supporting me
are my family, and daphne
I feel like I can truly fall back and walk along the road of life when I talk to them, or when I'm with them..
I'm not saying that you other guys out there aren't on my mind,
but..its more like..I don't know how to put it.
but I really would like to get back into the close-friends-mood again with you guys..I really mean it..
in fact, I can't wait for it, because then I'd probably feel "Ahh..finally, this day my life is back."
and, I don't think I like being alone at home anymore. Because of all this, I prefer to do things when there are people around. When I have afternoon classes, I'm all alone at home in the morning, and it makes me very uneasy, so I play some soundtracks loud enough so that I won't hear the silence in my home..
I really don't like being alone...I really, really don't.
It..makes me want to cry, and I've been doing just that pretty frequently..
but of course I'm really more than grateful for having made some friends I can hang out with during breaks in school..
its really alot better than being alone in school..
so I'm really happy in this aspect..
I think I really do need to study smart and not harder. Because there's just too many things for me to do, so much so that I can't afford to give my fullest attention to every single detail.
and then I also need to manage my time well so that I can properly relax on my friday evenings or half-day saturdays..
to maybo:
I'm so sorry I couldn't make it for all the invitations you've smsed me. I'm really so sorry and I really wanted to go, but circumstances forbade it..Not because of alot of work but I just have this policy when I'm studying. But I was really happy that you asked me out..it made me really really happy because it made me get in very slight touch with my old life..so thank you so much, really..! Ask me out again alright?
to daphne:
thank you so much for that ice cream on that day..eating the ice cream you bought me makes me feel less lonely because I feel like I'm with you. Its really comforting..
but there are alot of things to do
rather, I'm doing more work than others are, I think.
but that's that..
and I have almost no life now.
I made friends here and there, so its getting alot better,
but I don't have the time to properly relax and do the things I want..
save for my daily routine stuff..
and I'm very lonely, so lonely to the point that I often break down,..
and it started ever since the U did.
I don't know why..
Everything is just so..I don't know.
All of my good friends (daphne, xy, maybo, jehanne, etc)
they're all busy with their school work,
and so am I,
its not that its difficult to meet up..
but somehow..I'm just really lonely..
my nights are filled with a very still air,
I don't even like sleeping in my room anymore.
well its more like..
I don't even want to sleep alone.
I'm in a house, with my parents,
and yet I'm alone in my room,
and there is no one but me.
its just..beyond lonely, I don't know how to describe it..
the days are just so different from what they used to be..
back in the old days we would all hang out together,
and even if we didn't, my days were still always happy
but since I entered the U..
I feel even more lonely than ever..
I don't wish for a boyfriend just so he can fill this gap,
or anything of the sort.
you don't go making boyfriends like that. its wrong.
I just..I just really wished the days went back to how they were before the U started..Where everything was my-pace-styled,
where I would have happy and comfortable company like when I was at work.
but now..
say if I met up with my old gang,
or just with daphne,
I would feel that everything's changed..like literally..
I can't get back into the I-have-good-friends mood anymore..
I only know that the people who are supporting me
are my family, and daphne
I feel like I can truly fall back and walk along the road of life when I talk to them, or when I'm with them..
I'm not saying that you other guys out there aren't on my mind,
but..its more like..I don't know how to put it.
but I really would like to get back into the close-friends-mood again with you guys..I really mean it..
in fact, I can't wait for it, because then I'd probably feel "Ahh..finally, this day my life is back."
and, I don't think I like being alone at home anymore. Because of all this, I prefer to do things when there are people around. When I have afternoon classes, I'm all alone at home in the morning, and it makes me very uneasy, so I play some soundtracks loud enough so that I won't hear the silence in my home..
I really don't like being alone...I really, really don't.
It..makes me want to cry, and I've been doing just that pretty frequently..
but of course I'm really more than grateful for having made some friends I can hang out with during breaks in school..
its really alot better than being alone in school..
so I'm really happy in this aspect..
I think I really do need to study smart and not harder. Because there's just too many things for me to do, so much so that I can't afford to give my fullest attention to every single detail.
and then I also need to manage my time well so that I can properly relax on my friday evenings or half-day saturdays..
to maybo:
I'm so sorry I couldn't make it for all the invitations you've smsed me. I'm really so sorry and I really wanted to go, but circumstances forbade it..Not because of alot of work but I just have this policy when I'm studying. But I was really happy that you asked me out..it made me really really happy because it made me get in very slight touch with my old life..so thank you so much, really..! Ask me out again alright?
to daphne:
thank you so much for that ice cream on that day..eating the ice cream you bought me makes me feel less lonely because I feel like I'm with you. Its really comforting..
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
eh..just an update for the sake of it.
second of school today,
its still going fine.
school is great.
at least, better than wasting away at home.
but I come back near evening,
and after taking a quick shower,
I need to start reading up on tomorrow's lectures.
then on thursdays my lessons start at 8.30am
so I need to wake up super early just to eat a proper breakfast
and then leave the house at 7.15am for fear of the morning rush hour
zzzz
and I go on treasure hunts to find the lecture theatres
awesome eh?
then I still need to figure out where to get some stuff,
and I probably will need to go get a new black ink catridge because my old one is dying :\
and more
the lec notes sre in pdf format
and I have no idea how to print them out well
because the pages are...weird, eg
slide3 slide1
slide4 slide2
like that, if I don't rotate the pictures.
but if I rotate, the slides become really small
WTF?!
:\
edit: I managed to do it correctly! YAY. :\ By changing printer settings instead of preview settings :\ Ass.
second of school today,
its still going fine.
school is great.
at least, better than wasting away at home.
but I come back near evening,
and after taking a quick shower,
I need to start reading up on tomorrow's lectures.
then on thursdays my lessons start at 8.30am
so I need to wake up super early just to eat a proper breakfast
and then leave the house at 7.15am for fear of the morning rush hour
zzzz
and I go on treasure hunts to find the lecture theatres
awesome eh?
then I still need to figure out where to get some stuff,
and I probably will need to go get a new black ink catridge because my old one is dying :\
and more
the lec notes sre in pdf format
and I have no idea how to print them out well
because the pages are...weird, eg
slide3 slide1
slide4 slide2
like that, if I don't rotate the pictures.
but if I rotate, the slides become really small
WTF?!
:\
edit: I managed to do it correctly! YAY. :\ By changing printer settings instead of preview settings :\ Ass.
Saturday, August 8, 2009
BLOGSHOP UP!
le butterfly.
like FINALLY. zzzzz.
still in the midst of updating, like seriously.
the first post is a test post. and you can't buy something if the price hasn't been listed yet. ahaha.
go check it out (:
like FINALLY. zzzzz.
still in the midst of updating, like seriously.
the first post is a test post. and you can't buy something if the price hasn't been listed yet. ahaha.
go check it out (:
Saturday, August 1, 2009
I love you.
you know you love someone
when you do things for him unconditionally
and expect nothing in return;
his happiness is your utmost happiness
you'd do anything for
an instant flash of a smile
across his face
you know that person is right for you
when you can be yourself
whenever you're with him;
no hiding of your true character
the person you truly love
is someone who makes you feel whole again
he is the closest to heaven
you'd ever want to be
you know you love someone
when its painful to be apart from him
you know you love someone
when you desire to share his burdens
he is the person
with whom you feel the safest
just some stuff I realized
by watching things.
searching, and searching..
for that someone
who makes you feel like that
and more.
what are your thoughts though?
share them with me (:
posted August 2nd
when you do things for him unconditionally
and expect nothing in return;
his happiness is your utmost happiness
you'd do anything for
an instant flash of a smile
across his face
you know that person is right for you
when you can be yourself
whenever you're with him;
no hiding of your true character
the person you truly love
is someone who makes you feel whole again
he is the closest to heaven
you'd ever want to be
you know you love someone
when its painful to be apart from him
you know you love someone
when you desire to share his burdens
he is the person
with whom you feel the safest
just some stuff I realized
by watching things.
searching, and searching..
for that someone
who makes you feel like that
and more.
what are your thoughts though?
share them with me (:
posted August 2nd
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