lovers at JP!

a great week.
had an even greater night out with a couple of old friends today.
took loads of pictures
of them actually, lol
photos will be put up at a later date on FB
because I'm resizing, auto-colour-correcting (some), and also trying to salvage all those red-eye photos >.<
they might look a tad bit weird, but it'd be the best I can do
so don't blame me =3

just got my lappy last saturday,
its working great
and its light
and its really handy, like really handy.

got some stuff for daphne too.
this pair of earrings from the NTU bazaar
a macaron key-chain
and some other stuff

and I made more friends,
and so school is getting alot, alot better
but it seems that I'm still busy here and there
so yeah..
oh well.

I haven't caught up with some of the animes I'm following this season,
for two weeks already xD
and some new chapters of certain manga I'm reading
ah well
its okay

oh and we also went to jo's new house at JP
great ambience at the pool at night
love it, honest.
I'd want my house to be like that,
but alot more spacious please xD
the overall design and concept is pretty impressive,
and visually more stunning than Parc Oasis
but I still like my estate (:
because its SPACIOUS!
ahahahahaha~~

oh and I also got me a Stitch puzzle to do with my family ;D

that's all for now (:

oh and the blogshop,
it'll take me some time to do a proper post
I'm really sorry about that.

once again,
pictures to be up soon. (:

bon voyage to jehanne!
take care my dearrrrr.
sorry I couldn't get you that puzzle >_<

an ending theme..

school is going good..
but there are alot of things to do
rather, I'm doing more work than others are, I think.
but that's that..

and I have almost no life now.
I made friends here and there, so its getting alot better,
but I don't have the time to properly relax and do the things I want..
save for my daily routine stuff..

and I'm very lonely, so lonely to the point that I often break down,..
and it started ever since the U did.
I don't know why..
Everything is just so..I don't know.
All of my good friends (daphne, xy, maybo, jehanne, etc)
they're all busy with their school work,
and so am I,
its not that its difficult to meet up..
but somehow..I'm just really lonely..
my nights are filled with a very still air,
I don't even like sleeping in my room anymore.
well its more like..
I don't even want to sleep alone.
I'm in a house, with my parents,
and yet I'm alone in my room,
and there is no one but me.
its just..beyond lonely, I don't know how to describe it..
the days are just so different from what they used to be..
back in the old days we would all hang out together,
and even if we didn't, my days were still always happy
but since I entered the U..
I feel even more lonely than ever..
I don't wish for a boyfriend just so he can fill this gap,
or anything of the sort.
you don't go making boyfriends like that. its wrong.
I just..I just really wished the days went back to how they were before the U started..Where everything was my-pace-styled,
where I would have happy and comfortable company like when I was at work.
but now..
say if I met up with my old gang,
or just with daphne,
I would feel that everything's changed..like literally..
I can't get back into the I-have-good-friends mood anymore..
I only know that the people who are supporting me
are my family, and daphne
I feel like I can truly fall back and walk along the road of life when I talk to them, or when I'm with them..
I'm not saying that you other guys out there aren't on my mind,
but..its more like..I don't know how to put it.
but I really would like to get back into the close-friends-mood again with you guys..I really mean it..
in fact, I can't wait for it, because then I'd probably feel "Ahh..finally, this day my life is back."

and, I don't think I like being alone at home anymore. Because of all this, I prefer to do things when there are people around. When I have afternoon classes, I'm all alone at home in the morning, and it makes me very uneasy, so I play some soundtracks loud enough so that I won't hear the silence in my home..
I really don't like being alone...I really, really don't.
It..makes me want to cry, and I've been doing just that pretty frequently..

but of course I'm really more than grateful for having made some friends I can hang out with during breaks in school..
its really alot better than being alone in school..
so I'm really happy in this aspect..

I think I really do need to study smart and not harder. Because there's just too many things for me to do, so much so that I can't afford to give my fullest attention to every single detail.
and then I also need to manage my time well so that I can properly relax on my friday evenings or half-day saturdays..



to maybo:
I'm so sorry I couldn't make it for all the invitations you've smsed me. I'm really so sorry and I really wanted to go, but circumstances forbade it..Not because of alot of work but I just have this policy when I'm studying. But I was really happy that you asked me out..it made me really really happy because it made me get in very slight touch with my old life..so thank you so much, really..! Ask me out again alright?

to daphne:
thank you so much for that ice cream on that day..eating the ice cream you bought me makes me feel less lonely because I feel like I'm with you. Its really comforting..

eh..just an update for the sake of it.
second of school today,
its still going fine.

school is great.
at least, better than wasting away at home.
but I come back near evening,
and after taking a quick shower,
I need to start reading up on tomorrow's lectures.

then on thursdays my lessons start at 8.30am
so I need to wake up super early just to eat a proper breakfast
and then leave the house at 7.15am for fear of the morning rush hour
zzzz

and I go on treasure hunts to find the lecture theatres
awesome eh?
then I still need to figure out where to get some stuff,
and I probably will need to go get a new black ink catridge because my old one is dying :\

and more
the lec notes sre in pdf format
and I have no idea how to print them out well
because the pages are...weird, eg
slide3 slide1
slide4 slide2
like that, if I don't rotate the pictures.
but if I rotate, the slides become really small
WTF?!
:\

edit: I managed to do it correctly! YAY. :\ By changing printer settings instead of preview settings :\ Ass.

BLOGSHOP UP!

le butterfly.


like FINALLY. zzzzz.
still in the midst of updating, like seriously.
the first post is a test post. and you can't buy something if the price hasn't been listed yet. ahaha.

go check it out (:

I love you.

you know you love someone
when you do things for him unconditionally
and expect nothing in return;
his happiness is your utmost happiness
you'd do anything for
an instant flash of a smile
across his face

you know that person is right for you
when you can be yourself
whenever you're with him;
no hiding of your true character

the person you truly love
is someone who makes you feel whole again

he is the closest to heaven
you'd ever want to be

you know you love someone
when its painful to be apart from him

you know you love someone
when you desire to share his burdens

he is the person
with whom you feel the safest


just some stuff I realized
by watching things.
searching, and searching..
for that someone
who makes you feel like that
and more.

what are your thoughts though?
share them with me (:

posted August 2nd

stars, plasma, ions, chemistry..

now this is unexpected,
for me to do a new post the next day

in any case,
I was reading up on a game(n wikipedia) which had loads of relations to history,
like the Third Crusade, Damascus, Templar Knights, etc
so yes, I did loads of right-click-open-in-new-tab

there was this page about Doomsday
coming December 12, 2012
the end of the world,
related articles include astronomical significance,
historical countdown etc
which led me to right-click again
so I could read about astronomy-related things

back to the game, which takes place in Jerusalem and Damascus,
I saw some pictures of cities in Syria.
made me think, "I should go there some time."
there are alot of historically important locations there,
and the very thought of being able to stand in front of these sites, as well as seeing it, makes me think, "Wow...Something actually happened here so long ago. And to think the building is still standing. Very, very intriguing and wonderous."

It'd be spectacular if we could -feel- the great weight of importance of places in history
Don't you think so?
Which brings me to my next discussion,
even though it is totally unrelated to history

here we are, in the present.
and so many events happened so long ago,
things we never witnessed,
great people whom we've never set our eyes upon,
etc etc etc

and when I started reading the tabs about Aatronomy
it made me think about the whole universe.
the planets, the orbits, the sun, the Milk Way,
and how many light years it takes for ANYTHING to happen
It suddenly dawned upon me how insignificant we are, as individuals,
in this Great Flow of the universe.
As humans, we are only a very, very miniscule part of everything
And yet, when you think about YOUR own existence as a person in society,
everything each of us have experienced is, in some way, important to ourselves.
this sounds confusing,
but my point is,

our existence itself is miniscule compared to that of the universe
but because we are living organisms, and perhaps because we are human,
our intelligence and consciousness enables us to realize/believe in our own individual importance in society.
it makes us humans conceited and self-centered, doesn't it? just because we are able to think.

but I think it is more important to always remember,
that we are in fact,
very insignificant individuals as compared to the great flow of events in the whole universe

our lives are so short,
a mere hundred years as a maximum for each human.
what is a hundred years compared to ten light years?

all in all, the bottom line is, I repeat,
we are only a small part of a Great Flow in the universe.

anyway, on to my next topic,
I read about suns and stars as well,
wow, there's just alot of information on these things
my head could blow, but its really interesting
like magnetic fields, solar flares, etc etc etc.
anyway, I read this -
A star is a massive, luminous ball of plasma that is held together by gravity.

plasma...what's plasma? *right-click*
yeah, and I read and read and read,
and I realized,
SHIT I NEED TO REFRESH MY CHEMISTRY.
and yes, I'm definitely going to have to do that soon -_-;;

posted July 27th

theme park galore!

so here's a little update on what I've been up to -

managed to catch the latest HP film recently
'twas not so bad.
I mean,
if you're looking for alot of action, a full story,
then you're better off not watching it.
personally,
the half-blood prince felt more like
an intermission and introduction of sorts to me.

I'd like to think
that it had a good development
of relationships between our
beloved characters,
some dark story beneath the cheerful scenes

however,
the transition between the
dark elements and the brighter side of things
was done totally half-assed
also,
the relationships weren't flashed out enough
so it was difficult
to get into the romance
it was as if the movie expected us
to already be informed of the backstory of each relationship shown.

then there's the part about
the half-blood prince's potions book
there was just not enough relation to it
sure, we're being shown scenes
of Harry never letting go of the book
at almost all-times,
but still,
there wasn't enough detail

I don't know if the potions book
was of any great importance,
and even though its supposed to be
"through the book, Harry gets closer to Professor Slughorn (sp)"
There just wasn't enough detail to the book, nor to
Harry's 'mission'

as a non-reader,
I'm left being quite disappointed in these aspects
everything basically felt
like an introduction to the book.
its not good enough to
be representative of the book.

with that said,
I'm not unhappy with the movie.
Afterall,
I wasn't expecting much
(not because of the reviews)
I just wanted to watch it,
that's all.

anyway,
here's something extra,
HARRY POTTER THEME PARK
Its to open next year I heard,
In America.
I'm gonna go there when I have the money, I swear lol.

oh and,
having a blob of custard on your cheek
is embarassing.
*chewy junior*

posted July 26th